to things and people again, to life? to myself, to my senses? how the heck am i supposed to connect and feel again. feel part of this world? i try going out and doing things i used to like or like but it doesn't work at all. how do i get my body back and everything. i really feel like i don't exist. this is not the way to live at all. not one bit. everything is so artificial, including me.
