[JasonFar]

... I'm a special, brilliant mother fucker? Well then fuck you.

This seems to be the train of thought behind much of my rage. (and encounters with the world / every Human being individually)

No wonder I'm not in a relationship.

 

[JasonFar]

The other common thought:

Who the fuck do you think you are?

 

[Guest]

Now turn both rage-filled questions to yourself....as if your Grand Self is asking (the more realistic part of) you "if you/I don't think I'm so brilliant, then FUCK YOU!!" and then notice that DP serves that function.

If I cannot be (in my own eyes) the grandiose self I NEED to believe I am, then I HATE ME - and I disown me - and I will have nothing to do with me!!! (enter dp)

And the even more poignant second question you ask: "Who the hell do you/I think you/I are/am???"

Self is composed of many part-selves....pieces of self-image compartmentalized so tightly that we can literally wage war against them. If my self-image is more important to me than my real experiencing living SELF, then any threat to that (esp. from within) might make me disown me. And DP is nothing if it's not the disownment of self.

food du thought?

Love,
J

 

[JasonFar]

Thanks Janine. Appreciate it.

 

[JAG]

Jason... my hair use to be that thick....

 

[person3]

grandiosity gets so tiring after a while...

almost boring at times

there's only so many places you can go with it, only so many fantasies. and they all bring the same results.

 

[Brainsilence02]

Self is composed of many part-selves....pieces of self-image compartmentalized so tightly that we can literally wage war against them. If my self-image is more important to me than my real experiencing living SELF, then any threat to that (esp. from within) might make me disown me. And DP is nothing if it's not the disownment of self.

This sounds very familiar. What do you do if you think it's this?

You find out why you think your self-image is more important and how to stop this thought?

You find out why you reacted that way (DP/DR) when your thought that your self-image is more important?

You start to place everything inside your mind in a just (as of "justice") way?