[Zpgrimm]

Hello All,

Not sure what I am going to write, but it seems like everyday I wake of my symptoms are worse. I can barely write these post anymore which some would say is a good thing. I have so many symptoms from DP/DR in addition to many other depressive symptoms. I literally feel like I am hanging off a cliff by the fingernails of one hand when it used to be two and that was bad enough. I checked myself into a psychiatric unit for a week and that did no good. I've been drinking the with the exception of being hospitalized because it has been the only thing that works a tiny bit to help me. Ughhhh...Please pray for me.

 

[Thomas2021]

How long have you suffered? Are you having your first episode, or have you had it before?

 

[lost235]

Do you have anything to distract you with other than drinking? I feel like that could be a really bad habit long-term, even though I understand that it helps in the moment. And for how long have the symptoms been getting worse and worse? I think I somewhat get what you’re going through, I have a lot of depressive symptoms too in addition to the DPDR.

 

[Zpgrimm]

It's so bad that the drinking is pretty much the only thing right now, and I know it can make depression worse. The symptoms started back up in late October and have been getting worse ever since.

 

[lost235]

Ahh okay I see. Do you have anyone to talk to, like a family member or friend? I’d say when it comes to drinking it would be important to talk to someone who can help you so it doesn’t get out of hand. My symptoms have become more and more ever since October-ish too. I’d say it’s tough because there’s so many of them, each one pops up every now and then so it feels like it’ll never end. I find that writing them all down and working on them one by one has helped a lot to get some control over it. It can be pretty overwhelming to just jump into fixing everything at once. I really hope things get better for you

 

[Findmywayhome]

The first few months I had this disorder I was obsessed constantly with the idea that my symptoms just kept getting worse. What ive realized now is that this disorder is so abstract that I think the mere awareness of the idea of symptoms progressing will actually make your symptoms worse. It wasn't until late December that my symptoms began to stabilize, and looking back I think it was because my meds started to really kick in. But since then, I still have the occasional feeling that my symptoms have for no apparent reason gotten worse.

Right now its really bad, i can still function like a human, but im so disconnected from the functioning part of me I wouldn't even attribute that to evidence that im getting better. I think maybe its because I started to have excessive stress about school, then I missed my meds twice, ajd then I started to take them in the morning instead of night, its a bad combination of changes. Im still cursed with this idea that my disorder seems so bad their is just no way I can "unsee" my symptoms and get better

 

[Zpgrimm]

What meds are you on right now?

 

[Findmywayhome]

What meds are you on right now?

Zoloft. Doesnt alleviate my dpdr symptoms at all, but helps a lot with limiting anxiety and negative emotion. It helped me to stop obsessing over my disorder for a good while, but now Its got me in a bad place atm

 

[Aridity]

You are getting worse because you are drinking, it will help in the moment but will rebound harder. Depletes GABA, and your glutamate receptors. Which are of course impacting your mental state. Stop it.

 

[Saschasascha]

Do you take any medications?

 

[Grindelwald]

You are getting worse because you are drinking, it will help in the moment but will rebound harder. Depletes GABA, and your glutamate receptors. Which are of course impacting your mental state. Stop it.

You're absolutely correct about this. Alcohol is not good for DP. It can help while you are drunk but the next day (or several days) will be brutal. It's a net negative. Plus alcohol is just not good for you period.