Risperidone.
I thought also that if god did control my mind and everybody else we would effectively all be one person chatting to ourself a same ideas as Solipsism so it's not really ideal is it?
I hate when people say psychosis as that sets me off on another worry I have that and I worry all day. Also I'm sure psychosis You are generally unaware you are in it.
How did you get over the worry people are controlling your mind? I found with some reading of forums that it is a more common thought than I first imagined and people with dp and ocd do wonder it.
it would be ideal in the sense that since god is our creator and wants the best for us we would live a life that is good for us . but as I said god doesnt control us . he gave us free will and we all have our own personality
if you are psychotic you are psychotic . dont be scared of it . I was so scared of being psychotic that I suffered a panic attack which lasted several hours .....like I was in a state of panic again and again for several hours because I thought I am going crazy . I called my physician who is still a young dude and we both are cool with each other and the secretary knows that and she also likes me and my mom so that helped me to get to see the doc at the same day . when I went to him I couldnt sit and had to walk around in front of him up and down .....he gave me half an ativan which calmed me down a little . and said to me I have to go to the psychiatric emergency
after a few days when the ativan was out of my body I had the worst time in my whole life ....I had horrible intrusive thoughts and one day I thought that my mind is controlled by someone who wants me to do some bad things which almost brought me to kill myself
I took antipsychotics for a few months . now I dont take antipsychotics anymore since 2-3 months
dont be scared of being psychotic bro . there are many people on earth suffering from psychosis . be happy that you dont hallucinate or hear voices . but I am not even scared of that anymore . whatever happens happens . there are so many meds that can help after all ....
the important thing is to know that you are just thinking something that doesnt make any sense . I know it is hard when you are right in the middle of it where logic doesnt work but just try to think logically again and again . one day you will laugh about it
in the past I had several weird thoughts that made me obsessed and anxious ....years later I am laughing about them lmao
as a child for example when I was like 7-8 or so ? or maybe 9-10 I dont remember fully .....I thought that I might be the reincarnation of elvis presley xD I was scared that I could be elvis presley . I also was scared to become an old man .....
one day in a martial arts class when I was like 14-16 or so when we stood in line in front of our teacher I thought suddenly in my head "what if they teach us how to throw fireballs once I get to the black belt ? .....I dont think I can handle the responsibilty ! " and I got a little scared ...hahahahhahahah wtf
how stupid is that ? it's just fucking ridiculous and I know it now . just say "fuck you" to these thoughts .
nobody is controling your mind