I hate DP/DR. Its not fair what so ever to have to deal with this each and every single day. I just recently had surgery to get my appendix removed and always feared surgery, but whenever i found out i had to have it, i didnt really care that i had too because i knew deep down within, that surgery is not as scary as DP/DR is. Yet we have to deal with it EVERY SINGLE DAY AND SOMEHOW RECOVER by trying to do some kind of thing or tactic that someone else used to recover, it feels impossible to get out of this condition. I find it hard that something so fucking terrible could exist but it literally does and i find myself asking myself all the time, just why the fuck did this happen to me? Because im so intelligent i become mentally ill? It just doesnt make any sense. Always anxious and always scared about absolutely nothing is just stupid and completely uncalled for.