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I just have a question : why? All this pain?

Why?

Why any good answer, therapy, useful meds?

Why this hell?

Why I try to open doors and find someone who will help me, and they always say to me : it takes years for just being better, there is no medical use for dp/dr?

I may live in a dream but I have REAL fear, REAL sadness, REAL despair, REAL horror inside my head, REAL family and REAL questions...

I can't cope.

Please just say to me how.

Cynthia

 

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Why I try to open doors and find someone who will help me, and they always say to me : it takes years for just being better, there is no medical use for dp/dr?

Cause they are idiots and don't know anything.

Here is my advice: Try to find an environment that doesn't put pressure on you.

Pressure comes in many forms:
Trying to 'change' in order to be different or 'better'.
Or trying to adapt to given cicumstances that are not serving you (that you don't want deal with)
Fighting with important people
Making up a future that in order to meet a certain standard requires you to be 'different' from now
Believe more in doctors or therapists than in yourself.

So all the above things: bad idea.

Focus on what goes on right in front of your face. If it's too much, don't focus at all. Find sympathy and support for who you are, not for what you should be or as a stepping stone to meet up with a certain standard.
Look at your feet, not at the horizon.

 

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It takes years to recover from nearly all emotional/mental symptoms. That's just fact.

It tooks many years to get there and it will take years to get out.

Anxiety, depression, etc. can get some relief from meds, but even those people who have a good response to anti-anxiety or anti-depression medications are not cured. They still suffer symptoms. They just limp better with the meds.

The symptoms that you describe, Cynthia, and that you have (because I know you a bit from emails, etc.) were caused by years and years and years of unresolved "stuff'

There is no quick fix.

But there is a fix. You can focus on being angry that it's not quick and refuse to try, or you can say "thank GOD there is hope" and try some intense long-term therapy.

Anything else is just beating your head against the wall of reality and saying "why, oh, why can't things be the way I want?!" You can keep doing that, but you will get nowhere.

Or you can turn around and try to change.

That's all she wrote.

There is no other answer/solution, magical cure or savior. Once you truly HONESTLY GET THAT, you will begin the work.

Love you,
J

 

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But I only want some relief to go back to work! And stop crying!! And stop obsessing!

Then after I'll do the work.

Cyn xxx

 

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Cynthia,

But I only want some relief to go back to work!

You will only get that relief, when you GET working.
I havent invented life and I dont agree with how it works either, but it works this way, not the other way around, we dont have a say in this.
You can fight it all you can, however you will end up feeling more miserable.

Take care.

 

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Cynthia in my opinion it's not such a bad thing to want to get back to work.
I did this by taking klonopin.Not a cure as Janine has mentioned.
Medication can help people get back into some sort of a normal life.
I know you've taken a few different types,just have to keep trying until you find one that makes even a small dent in your dp.
I have a friend who suffered with anxiety,depression/panic for a long long time.A doctor gave her paxil and she's a new person,has been for a couple of years now.

As for therapy,I'm not sure if it's the way to go for everyone but it certainly seems worth a try.
Why not make a start,who knows it could just be the answer you were hoping for.

I need to take my own advice here.
all the best,Shelly

 

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"I" you're a legend. You know just what people need. You're like me, y'know... you can tie your head in huge knots, huge knots, and you can untangle and see straight for others.

(I, did you ever want to PUNCH your Mother, does She make you want to drop to the floor and die).

That's all she wrote.

Janine, why did you write this?

But I only want some relief to go back to work! And stop crying!! And stop obsessing!

Then after I'll do the work.

Cyn xxx

HaHa You're funny.
That line's classic,

Then after I'll do the work.

You're very regressive, the posts following that were like the head nun bringing the PADDLE down, story of my life,
a Quote
"Sometimes instead of dying instantly from fright or shock, we may survive the initial horror and astonishment, only to slowly waste away in the thrall of some terrible or numinous image burned into the faceplate of memory, a single fixed idea. BEAUTY ONLY THE FIRST TOUCH OF TERROR WE CAN STILL BEAR, and all that."
Eleanor Druse, "The journals of Eleanor Druse".

I think Marilyn Manson wrote that Artists have to be handled with Kid gloves... I have an artistic temperment... handle me with Kid Gloves I'll do whatever you want...
I wish my family knew how timid and soft I was... They just PLAYED on the fact that I shatter easily, respond to guilt, co-ercion etc etc

 

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ghost, please stop.

 

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ghost, please stop.

I've stopped.