[Guest]

This morning I scheduled my day, and I did normal things: dishes, cleaning, etc. I cleaned up my kitchen, and moved a lot in the house. Each time that I do NORMAL things like that and move a lot in the house (walk), I feel more disconnected, each time I concentrate on normal things, I feel more disoriented and less myself, like if another person that me does that... that scares me. I try to say : it doesn't bother me, but each time I change places, I can't be used to it, this feeling of total disconnection and being total stranger to yourself. Like my mind shut down and wake up in another room. It's confusing when you try to be logical in it!!

Each time I try to say to myself : Now I am gonna seach a job, and think of what I would like to do, and try to feel lucid and watch people at the mall, wondering if I could do this, I get very disconnected. Why?

Also, yesterday I entered and go out my room, just to tease my dr symptom, laugh of it, I did it few time (LOL), and the dr feeling and confusion feeling stayed the same. Even if I say : it's stupid! Out loud, it stays. Janine (or thers) how's that?

My God I hate that.

Thanks for the replies.

Cynthia xxx :?

 

[Monkeydust]

I'm not sure exactly why this is happening but, like you, sometimes my efforts at distraction can backfire.

One piece of advice that I will give is not to self-monitor while distracting yourself - try as hard as possible to stop thinking "how do I feel now?" and try to "get lost" in whatever you're doing. I know this is much easier said than done, and I'm normally unsuccessful at doing it myself, but that's all I can think of right now.

 

[bat]

i think just keep on doing the normal things even if it's making things feel worse at the minute. i think keeping busy and active helps

 

[kenc127]

It is precisely the "normal" that your brain wants to dissociate from. That's why it is so hard. Your brain doesn't want to let go of the DP protection. Something in the "normal" is what freaked out your ego in the first place that led to this DP breakdown, so that is why your brain doesn't want much to do with the normal anymore. You have to force normal upon it by continuing to strive toward it.