I'd say I did the same, TOF.I'd say try to live your life as best you can. Enjoy the simple things in life. This can be done with DP/DR. Why have I not recovered yet? Because I did the opposite of all the advice from those who recover whom say to just try to forget about it, distract oneself and live life as you normally would. Instead, I've been determined to "figure it out".
Whether it was defensive narcissism: "I have an elite condition that will take advanced medical knowledge to resolve."
PTSD: "This is a hurricane I've no control over. It's dangerous not to think about it all the time"
Sheer bloody-minded stubbornness: "I will figure this out. There's a magic key, I just need to think about it more"
Pure O, OCD: "I can't let this go. Let's go over this one more time."