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Why can't I stop obsessing? I feel so disconnected and keep convincing myself that everything is fake and I am dreaming. I fear I am developing some sort of delusional thinking. I feel like part of me truly believes I am dreaming and that scares the heck out of me.

I've driving my psychiatrist nuts. My husband doesn't understand anxiety and keeps brushing me off. So I am trying to be a mother and do the day to day while in complete fear and shock that this all is a dream. I fear that any second now I'm going to have to check into a mental institution.

And Google doesn't help. I keep reading about delusional disorders where people do not believe the world is real. I feel like I'm on my way there.
 

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I dont know what type of pshchiatrist you have but you should probably search for a psychiatrist that specializes in dissociative disorders and trauma. They seem to understand these things better than other psychiatrists/therapists. You may also want to look for one that specializes in obsessive compulsive disorder. Dpdr tends to make the sufferer become obsessed with how strange they feel and how unreal everything is. Its also normal for dpdr to make you think delusionally. Its all you think about day and night and i can only imagine how hard that must be while also being married and having children. This obsessive thinking is the same thing people with ocd experiance except with other things. The anxiety is crippling and i understand your fear. Its hard to break it but its possible.
 

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We end up convincing ourselves our concepts because we get trapped in circular thinking.

If you question that the world is fake, you'll obsess over an answer to disprove that; finding that answer, you'll find a way to circumvent to test the integrity of said answer; and so on and so forth. When we think this way, we oftentimes avoid how inaccurate and irrational our thought processes really are. I believed that the world was fake as well and I found myself dwelling over it for hours in the day. What I wasn't taking into account was that I spent far too much time trying to find answers to a problem that my brain would never allow me to solve. Two years worth of time!

I met with two different psychologists at the time. After telling them both about my experience, they told me to try something for just a week. Every time I felt like my thoughts were getting the best of me, I would audibly tell myself to stop and would force myself to focus on another thing. I'd watch a YouTube video, write in a journal about something, or play a game. Alongside this, I would allot fifteen minutes of my time in the evening. In these fifteen minutes, I'd let my brain do whatever it wanted. Think about the world being fake, answer questions and question answers, et cetera. After those fifteen minutes, I would force myself to move on completely.

In my experience, this was actually the most beneficial thing I've ever tried. It wasn't exactly easy, but your brain has a way of rewiring itself over habits. If you make it a habit to actively shut down these thoughts throughout the day and only think about them in the allotted time, your brain will catch up and make it an almost natural process. Again, it's not incredibly easy at the start. There were plenty of times where I failed and fell back into my obsessive thought processes, but I'd pick it right back up and try again. I'd give this a shot if I were you! It really helped me out so maybe it can for you as well.

And Google doesn't help. I keep reading about delusional disorders where people do not believe the world is real. I feel like I'm on my way there.
I wouldn't use Google at all, haha. It'll only make your thoughts worse and you won't find any answer that'll help you immediately. As for the delusional thinking, there are plenty of people that have philosophical obsessions like the world being fake. Anxiety tends to do that to people! Which is far more common than an actual, substantiated delusional disorder. Thought the same thing myself. In fact, I thought I was developing schizophrenia. But in actuality, it was just my anxiety and obsession taking a hold of me. It happens to the best of us.

I hope things get better for you, though. It must be rough balancing being a mother with these thoughts! :c
 

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Thank you for the replies. I think you both described it perfectly. The psychiatrist I'm seeing seems to understand exactly what I'm going through and I have an appointment tonight to see a therapist that specializes in OCD/anxiety/trauma. Just wish there was a quicker fix. New meds are increasing my anxiety which throws fuel to the fire. Trying to stay positive and not think the worse or let the thoughts drive me insane. Acceptance which seems to be the holy grail for DR/DP is so hard.
 

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I fear I am developing some sort of delusional thinking. I feel like part of me truly believes I am dreaming and that scares the heck out of me.

I keep reading about delusional disorders where people do not believe the world is real. I feel like I'm on my way there.
so what if you had it ? why are you scared of it ? (I was scared too btw and even suffered a panic attack)
 
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