[M A R S]

This is just getting to much now. I freak out over everything. I walk in and look at my room and i feel like I'm going to freak out. The fear is the same kind of fear one would get if the cops or a gang were after them.

Its like my mind keeps misfiring and its sending the wrong instructions to my body. I also feel like things are not real and that is the instant spark for my fear. I have even tired to to just say "FUKC IT" and give in to the fear, that does NOTHING!

Noting works, Alcohol does not work, Vicodin and Codeine DO not calm me down. Weed does not even effect me. I have taken sleeping pills, NOTHING...

I cant live like this. I feel like I'm going to jump out of my body at any second.

Does anyone know of any relaxation techniques that can END THIS HORROR?!?

Ill never be able to live like this... :x :x

 

[Imagine]

You have to find away to calm down and get yourself a good sleep.

I know it seems hard but even when pickled in fear and tension you will end up falling asleep if lying in bed. Make sure you lessen your visual stimuli at least half an hour before you go to bed.

 

[M A R S]

Im 10 seconds from a total loss of reality...

 

[Sojourner]

Ok, plex, what happened?

 

[M A R S]

nothing , im like this 90% of the time.. Its madness

 

[Imagine]

I'm there too.

I feel I have already lost a big part of my reality and my functions are about to go any minute.

 

[flowingly]

i know those feelings all too well.

it baffles me that i'm not alone in feeling in that sort of way

it sucks, buddy, but hang in there. you're stronger than you think.