I can't speak for everyone else, but for me schizophrenia just represents the end, the point of no return.
If I just remain the neurotic mess that I am then, whatever else happens, I can recover, and I believe that I will some day, even if it means that I have to invest in a large amount of therapy like Janine did. As long as there's some light at the end of the tunnel, however faint, I'm willing to bear this, for now.
Schizophrenia, on the other hand, is a whole different ball-game. The prosepcts for full recovery are slim. If that's what I've got then "that's it", my life's over as far as I'm concerned and I might as well just throw in the towel. Perhaps it's a variation of the "fear of death" that many people have.
I'm scared of developing it because, in some ways, my symptoms might be consistent with an early development of it. Even though I've not got (at least I don't think I've got) any worse after nearly 5 months with all of this.
And I'm pretty sure that a large number of schizophrenics are very much aware of their feelings, even if they don't have insight to perceive what is causing them or that they are irrational. A schizophrenic might lack insight into what, if anything, is wrong with them - but they'd still feel the paranoia, still experience the delusions and hallucinations and still have to live in what is effectively a permanent nightmare.
I don't think that's better than DP in the least; I'd much rather stick wth DP, for now.
If I just remain the neurotic mess that I am then, whatever else happens, I can recover, and I believe that I will some day, even if it means that I have to invest in a large amount of therapy like Janine did. As long as there's some light at the end of the tunnel, however faint, I'm willing to bear this, for now.
Schizophrenia, on the other hand, is a whole different ball-game. The prosepcts for full recovery are slim. If that's what I've got then "that's it", my life's over as far as I'm concerned and I might as well just throw in the towel. Perhaps it's a variation of the "fear of death" that many people have.
I'm scared of developing it because, in some ways, my symptoms might be consistent with an early development of it. Even though I've not got (at least I don't think I've got) any worse after nearly 5 months with all of this.
And I'm pretty sure that a large number of schizophrenics are very much aware of their feelings, even if they don't have insight to perceive what is causing them or that they are irrational. A schizophrenic might lack insight into what, if anything, is wrong with them - but they'd still feel the paranoia, still experience the delusions and hallucinations and still have to live in what is effectively a permanent nightmare.
I don't think that's better than DP in the least; I'd much rather stick wth DP, for now.
