[MyTwinTorpor]

Who lives in a world of constant, chronic, incessant DPD? Who feels the condition is overbearing and thoughts about the symptoms/experiences of the disorder recur 24/7? Who has never stopped experiencing DPD since the onset? I am curious of the people that experience the chronic form of DPD and not just on and off episodes. Ever since my DPD was triggered, it has not left me for a second. I remember the 'normal' before DPD took over me, and I know that my experience is very different from that previous 'normal'. The depersonalized feelings have been etched in my mind, resonating nonstop. I just want to know how many people out there are afflicted with chronic DPD.

 

[Guest]

Hi,

I have had constant dp for the last 12 months non stop.

It has never given me a break or any hope. I dont have real moments at all and constantly think about my symptoms unless Im totaaly absorbed in something. Even then, the dp comes straight back into my mind as soon as I finish doing what Im doing.

 

[Guest]

i had it for 2 months, perhaps thats why i dont understand you people

 

[MyTwinTorpor]

What do you mean you don't understand us "people"? Do you stress out over having the symptoms at all? 2 months is nothing, it might take 2 years to realize what you have lost.

 

[livinginhell333]

i have it chronic 24/7 no let up. i mean some days i could feel a tad bit better but the dp/dr never lifts. i don't know whats worse dp or dr. if i can rid of one of them like say dr i could go through life a little easier than now.

 

[Guest]

anniversary people - today, it?s three months of my 24/7 DP. affraid it never lifts, but I learned to have better and worse days, up and downs, but only on the level of my mood (even the mood itself is "behind the wall"). the downs are more frequent and take longer than the ups tho, but i?m working on it. it?s just harder and harder to find the motivation.

 

[maria]

anniversary people - today, it?s three months of my 24/7 DP. affraid it never lifts, but I learned to have better and worse days, up and downs, but only on the level of my mood (even the mood itself is "behind the wall"). the downs are more frequent and take longer than the ups tho, but i?m working on it. it?s just harder and harder to find the motivation.

I've had dp/dr (not sure which, probably overlapping) for 20 months nonstop. The "ups" and "downs" are exactly like described above, they don't effect my dp/dr experience at all, just the mood behind the thick wall. So though I feel the same all the time, other people say that my mood seems to change a lot. Sometimes I appear normal and sometimes depressed. I didn't enjoy my life before dp and I certainly don't enjoy it now. But I've gone from a hysteric zombie to a seemingly normal person, so I think I should get out of this state someday..

 

[Mipmunk]

I have suffered on and off for 11 years - all the other episodes lasted 4-7 weeks. But this time round, my cat got really ill and died, and the DP kicked in. I have had this DP now for 19 weeks (the longest ever). Identity confusion is the big one for me. Who am I etc etc 24/7, uncomfortable in my skin 24/7.

Each day has a been a bit better, but I still don't feel like "me". It seems like I have been like this forever. The last time I was well was 30 April.

Mip
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[peacedove]

Non-stop DP for about 17 years now.

 

[MyTwinTorpor]

I'm heading in that direction. I've had it for about 11 or 12 years.