I'm here again. I've been to this site everyday since i've discovered it and now I'm full of new thoughts and questions! All day the thoughts never stop but as soon as I try to write them or communicate it in any way I go blank and I feel I have to write so fast or the thought will be gone. I know as soon as I leave here my head will be swimming again. What can I do? I can't pin it down. there is no connection between my thoughts and they become distorted once they leave my mind.
Another thing is now that I've discovered these symptoms I can't help feeling as if I'm using it as yet another excuse for procrastinating. My whole life has become a series of excuses and lies ( It kills me to lie!) I'm constantly turning down invitations and making up lame excuses when I'd just love to say exactly what I'm feeling (althought I never know exactly). But when I say it out loud it sounds rediculous, paranoid. the few people that I've told about my illness have all said the same thing "that's normal, there's nothing wrong with you, or I get that too sometimes- but I know that they don't- somehow I know.
Advice please.
Another thing is now that I've discovered these symptoms I can't help feeling as if I'm using it as yet another excuse for procrastinating. My whole life has become a series of excuses and lies ( It kills me to lie!) I'm constantly turning down invitations and making up lame excuses when I'd just love to say exactly what I'm feeling (althought I never know exactly). But when I say it out loud it sounds rediculous, paranoid. the few people that I've told about my illness have all said the same thing "that's normal, there's nothing wrong with you, or I get that too sometimes- but I know that they don't- somehow I know.
Advice please.
