Hi Aminic,
It is hard to come to some of life's realizations. One is, of course, things cannot be exactly as we want them to be. If they were as I would like them to be, rude people would have to go and create their own "I am a RudeAss" site. But, alas, things are not exactly like we want them to be.
This disorder thrives on fear, fear that you have had since at least 11 years old. I empathize with your feeling of falling apart. It is a horrible feeling to have. Detachment is one of the hardest things to deal with, too.
I was wondering what you are doing now to work on fighting against these emotions and thoughts that bring you so much pain? It is unfortunate that there is not a simple answer to managing this disorder. It takes work, work and more work. Falling down and getting back up many times over.
Sorry to hear this is not the best of times for you.
terri*
It is hard to come to some of life's realizations. One is, of course, things cannot be exactly as we want them to be. If they were as I would like them to be, rude people would have to go and create their own "I am a RudeAss" site. But, alas, things are not exactly like we want them to be.
This disorder thrives on fear, fear that you have had since at least 11 years old. I empathize with your feeling of falling apart. It is a horrible feeling to have. Detachment is one of the hardest things to deal with, too.
I was wondering what you are doing now to work on fighting against these emotions and thoughts that bring you so much pain? It is unfortunate that there is not a simple answer to managing this disorder. It takes work, work and more work. Falling down and getting back up many times over.
Sorry to hear this is not the best of times for you.
terri*
