Joined
·
72 Posts
I'm a male in my mid-20's.
Panic disorder has conquered my life, and it has made me appreciate the most trivial moments during the times that I am experiencing the least amount of discomfort, even if it's just a few hours. It is very upsetting when what feels like almost the entirety of my livelihood has been robbed from me, from going places, to traveling, visiting doctors/appointments, exercising, participating in events, working, even to somehow better my life, or even just sitting in the comfort of my own living space, which also has become more and more of a challenge. Between the constant worrying, compulsive thoughts, and the hypersensitivities of certain sensations in my body, I feel like a lugging internally-claustrophobic conscious piece of meat that is not functioning with no purpose and is so vulnerable to my own self, and my surroundings. I cannot take this panic disorder anymore, and I can no longer take the symptoms that come with it. I no longer have an ounce of control over these negative worries or feelings, whether mental or physical. With how incompetent, dismissive, clueless, and misinformed doctors are nowadays, and no real solution without any sort of clarity or answers, and large obstacles in the way, the smallest and even dumbest parts of my life have become so precious, while the largest, most productive and important are now hard to grasp. I now look at the world from a larger, more external viewpoint, of how crappy and imperfect this universe is, and how useless my life is on this planet, serving no other purpose but to suffer and become a parasite to those around me. If your suffering so much, and your doctor just says "you're a little nervous, that's all", find another damn doctor.
Panic disorder has conquered my life, and it has made me appreciate the most trivial moments during the times that I am experiencing the least amount of discomfort, even if it's just a few hours. It is very upsetting when what feels like almost the entirety of my livelihood has been robbed from me, from going places, to traveling, visiting doctors/appointments, exercising, participating in events, working, even to somehow better my life, or even just sitting in the comfort of my own living space, which also has become more and more of a challenge. Between the constant worrying, compulsive thoughts, and the hypersensitivities of certain sensations in my body, I feel like a lugging internally-claustrophobic conscious piece of meat that is not functioning with no purpose and is so vulnerable to my own self, and my surroundings. I cannot take this panic disorder anymore, and I can no longer take the symptoms that come with it. I no longer have an ounce of control over these negative worries or feelings, whether mental or physical. With how incompetent, dismissive, clueless, and misinformed doctors are nowadays, and no real solution without any sort of clarity or answers, and large obstacles in the way, the smallest and even dumbest parts of my life have become so precious, while the largest, most productive and important are now hard to grasp. I now look at the world from a larger, more external viewpoint, of how crappy and imperfect this universe is, and how useless my life is on this planet, serving no other purpose but to suffer and become a parasite to those around me. If your suffering so much, and your doctor just says "you're a little nervous, that's all", find another damn doctor.
