[livinginhell333]

that you felt a lot of emotion and excitement over something. it seems like with this dp/dr i can't get excited over anything, and i used to get overly excited over everything. which can be good and bad, but now no excitement whatsoever. how bout you guys? do you guys have any emotion or excitement? it's so horrible to feel like this. it might be because i'm on meds i don't really know anymore. i just want to feel emotion and excitment again.

 

[Guest]

its hard to get excited over things when your so focused on dp/dr

 

[Guest]

Most likely when I was very young.

I became mentally ill when I was quite young, so I have trouble determining what is growth and what is sickness. I think that may have been why it went undetected for so long. I thought not being excited over things was part of becoming mature.

 

[livinginhell333]

how would i be able to get some emotion and some excitement again. i don't even remember the last time i really felt good. this isn't me.

 

[Guest]

As long as you dont feel comfortable with your dp/dr you wont feel excited about living life.

 

[livinginhell333]

how can anyone feel comfortable with dp/dr when its not what they really are, its just what they have become. its hard to accept being someone your really not.

 

[Guest]

lol trust me time works very well against you and for you, after a while if you want to get better you have to accept it and once you accept it thats when you start moving towards recovery and coming up with a plan. Its a difficult process that takes patience and understanding. It wont go away out of nowhere no matter how much you pray or want it to go away. It takes time, some recover quicker than others. You are just going through the normal thought processes of a sufferer. I wish you the best man

 

[Guest]

I get excited...but (And this is not really DR/DP related, just due to other stuff going on) I keep thinking about death and dying.

My train of thought literally goes "This is cool...but I'm still giong to get old and die, and this won't last forever" :? Don't ask me why, I wish I knew.

But yes, I can still feel excitement in a way. Just not how I used too.

 

[livinginhell333]

i also know that as you get older and more mature the less exctied you become over things say as when you were a teenager, but i'm only 20 years old and thought i had a lot of excitment and energy in me. seriously before this happended i was like the king of energy. i had all the energy in the world, that sometimes i didn't even know what to do with the energy. most of the time i acted silly and was having fun. or i played basketball with the energy and my friends where like damn he has a lot of energy. i was called the energizer bunny. i guess the battery died out or something, because i have no energy at all now.

 

[Guest]

hey im only 17, your fatigue could be caused by alot of things, if you think alot then your bound to get tired because the mind controls the body and if the mind gets tired so does its body. Also you could be in a state of depression which causes people to be tired and unmotivated to do anything with their time. It sounds to me like your in the beginning stage of depression.

 

[livinginhell333]

thats why i'm on an antidepressant, but i don't want it to numb my emotions anymore than my emotions are numb. i was on anti-psych and i'm scared that they numbed my emotions, so i don't want to be anymore emotionally numb.

 

[livinginhell333]

your only 17? it sux to get this sh*t so young. the years we should be enjoying having a grand ole time. i wouldn't mind if i got this when i was like 40 or 50. i would have at least lived the best years of my life, but this has to happen when i had a lot of good s*it going for me. i felt like i was on top of the world, then boooom!! crash!!

 

[enigma]

hey im only 17

That's just a year older than when I came down with it full time.

Somehow I imagined you being in your twenties (maybe you should go back to the 'Beavis' avatar?).

Guess that was a stupid question when I asked you if you left Russia before or after the U.S.S.R. folded. :roll:

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[Guest]

yea i know .. we still have our lives ahead man dont worry we'll be free from these chains

 

[Guest]

Just to let you guys know. I got married a year ago & my wedding day would have had to be my worst dp/dr day ever. Imagine trying to feel happy & plaster a smile on your face knowing that you should be overjoyed but you just can't feel it? That was my wedding day. I told myself whatever happens I must appear to be over the moon. So I did, now looking back on the photos I don't see what I was going through, I see a beautiful happy bride & I try to forget how I was actually feeling.
I am well on my way through recovery now & I am proud of myself & feel happy when I look at those photos. One day you guys will feel the same way, you will get better & will get excited again.

 

[Guest]

Praise God for the peace, warmth, and love that radiates from you charger....you have a humble yet postive outlook on things, and i could not think of 2 better emotions being combined....