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Just a question I'd like to gain some insight on. I've read about what people here say and it seems to be the opposite for me.
Here's just a quick example of some of my symptoms
1. My DP is strongest in AM - like 7 am as soon as I wake up. I used to grab the bed and hold onto it for dear life / although now it is easier to get up... but still - it's the strongest when I wake.
2. I drive an hour and 10 minutes to work every day. It's usually okay when I drive - but if I look down to grab my coffee for instance and look up - I get tunnel vision and start to have symptoms of a panic attack out of nowhere (I do drink coffee everyday) almost as if focusing on the coffee and looking up at all traffic etc is a huge stimuli reaction that gives me immediate panic (best way to describe)
3. I get stuck in these thought patterns - even in the middle of something (who am I?, etc) even when busy at work
4. Social situations actually calm me down. If I'm in panic mode, talking with others actually helps it a lot - even if I'm a group of people. If I'm alone - it's the worst.
5. I never had any abuse and my childhood was great - although I did have one traumatic event with the loss of a loved one.
6. I did not ever experience DP during childhood it may have started mildly around 20-21, but my nervous breakdown this July and August put it in the worst state
7. I am a recovering opiate addict. 67 days today. I quit my use because of DP during my breakdown and checked into rehab.
8. I currently take: 100 mg Naltrexone, 50 mg Lamictal, 1200 mg Gabapentin and 50 mg Seroquel
9. I usually sleep 8-10 hours per night
10. I've had an EEG done and waiting on results. I do get pressure and pain on the top left side of my head - but my MRI was fine
11. I fear drug use, extreme financial challenges and an underlying anxiety disorder contributed
12. I am starting emdr this week or next.
13. I have no problem going out with my wife and kids, going to work, going to events, etc
14. I do occasionally and more then often get this HUGE fog that feels like it encompasses my head - it impairs my cognitive ability to think, act, resonate, and causes perceptional and visual changes (aka like DP fog) - think that movie "The Fog" that swallows the whole town
15. I can get ready in front of the mirror some days and not even bat an eye and other days I stare at myself and ruminate
This is just some things about what I deal with.
I don't really have existential thoughts (I'm catholic and understand my role here on earth, no racing thoughts, and until my nervous breakdown (horrible pannic attacks - called 911 twice and breakthrough DP)
I went through many changes recently and found myself in severe financial strife + addiction.
Nights are the best to me... when it's dark and I'm off work in the house. My anxiety is very low.
This is kind of my story. I know we are all different
Here's just a quick example of some of my symptoms
1. My DP is strongest in AM - like 7 am as soon as I wake up. I used to grab the bed and hold onto it for dear life / although now it is easier to get up... but still - it's the strongest when I wake.
2. I drive an hour and 10 minutes to work every day. It's usually okay when I drive - but if I look down to grab my coffee for instance and look up - I get tunnel vision and start to have symptoms of a panic attack out of nowhere (I do drink coffee everyday) almost as if focusing on the coffee and looking up at all traffic etc is a huge stimuli reaction that gives me immediate panic (best way to describe)
3. I get stuck in these thought patterns - even in the middle of something (who am I?, etc) even when busy at work
4. Social situations actually calm me down. If I'm in panic mode, talking with others actually helps it a lot - even if I'm a group of people. If I'm alone - it's the worst.
5. I never had any abuse and my childhood was great - although I did have one traumatic event with the loss of a loved one.
6. I did not ever experience DP during childhood it may have started mildly around 20-21, but my nervous breakdown this July and August put it in the worst state
7. I am a recovering opiate addict. 67 days today. I quit my use because of DP during my breakdown and checked into rehab.
8. I currently take: 100 mg Naltrexone, 50 mg Lamictal, 1200 mg Gabapentin and 50 mg Seroquel
9. I usually sleep 8-10 hours per night
10. I've had an EEG done and waiting on results. I do get pressure and pain on the top left side of my head - but my MRI was fine
11. I fear drug use, extreme financial challenges and an underlying anxiety disorder contributed
12. I am starting emdr this week or next.
13. I have no problem going out with my wife and kids, going to work, going to events, etc
14. I do occasionally and more then often get this HUGE fog that feels like it encompasses my head - it impairs my cognitive ability to think, act, resonate, and causes perceptional and visual changes (aka like DP fog) - think that movie "The Fog" that swallows the whole town
15. I can get ready in front of the mirror some days and not even bat an eye and other days I stare at myself and ruminate
This is just some things about what I deal with.
I don't really have existential thoughts (I'm catholic and understand my role here on earth, no racing thoughts, and until my nervous breakdown (horrible pannic attacks - called 911 twice and breakthrough DP)
I went through many changes recently and found myself in severe financial strife + addiction.
Nights are the best to me... when it's dark and I'm off work in the house. My anxiety is very low.
This is kind of my story. I know we are all different
