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Hello everyone,

I am a victim of DP/DR for about 1 year and 1 month. It all started in the dormitories of Prague, I had just arrived to a new country prepared to start a new journey and have a fresh start, my past was pretty much working everyday just to go abroad and live life again. The excitement of it all was too overwhelming, this was also considering that I was starting university as well and living abroad in a European country, it was too surreal for me, I had planned hiking trips, meeting new faces & travels to other countries, it was all on my list.
In entering my dormitory, my dorm buddy was an intense pothead, and I raised in the middle east, didn't have much of a contact with cannabis. As going with the flow with this adventure, before going to sleep we used to smoke a joint, waking up the next day feeling a bit high from the day before, in my mind I thought it was an ongoing feeling of being high, so I didn't pay much attention to it. The smoking went on from September until November 2018, and in the beginning of November 2018, when I moved out of the dormitory to a shared flat, the biggest hit of my life occurred. The world was drifting away from me, it was vanishing before my eyes, life at that point felt meaningless. At that time, my heart and soul was shattered into pieces, this was all at a time that I was abroad, all alone, stuck in a world created by my own mind.
In January 2019, the persistent feeling of dissociation was so intense that all my basic senses were just faded away, these are the basic sense of feelings that attaches someone to this world; feeling, taste, smell, and seeing. I knew that this is just my mind paying with me and the sensations are not real, that it was all occurred by dissociation, although, the sensation is beyond terrifying, I guess that not even the word for it. Something that saddens me the most about that time is the feeling of time being distorted, its as if, I couldn't feel the seconds, minutes or hours. Time was just slipping away from my hands, moments in which could not be felt or enjoyed by.
Auditory distortion too, buzzing noises from the moment I woke up, until the moment I went to sleep. Visual distortion was something that made me withdraw from being social, considering that I have been working in the tourism field for a long ass time and interacted with alot of people. I did not want to be close to anybody, at that time my visuals were really distorted. Just to have an idea about my visuals, it was an effect using in movies called dolly zoom effect. If you had it, you know it feels like hell talking to someone.
It's January 2020, and I want to let you guys know that, its okay. It will eventually fade away, just give it time. Just remember, god give his toughest battles to his strongest soldiers. It is extremely hard, I know, it's like fighting a fight that has no ending and leaves you hopeless, but hang on there.
The beautiful take from all of this is, you'll never take things for granted, many have not suffered so they do not know how it feels, and once you're out, you'll see the world with better eyes than anyone else.

Wish you guys a good year ahead. Stay strong my peeps.
 

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Hey,

Thanks for such a positive post, it always means a lot to hear someone recovered completely from such a horrible disorder.

Have fun living in Prague, it's an interesting and beautiful city. Stay away from weed and other drugs though. :)
 
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