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i cant come up with a word to describe it yet......... but i guess terrifying horrible freightening and disturbing should work........

was in a session, nothing was said to trigger it............... it started in the first 5 minutes or so....... it just started happenning........ and it seemed like someone else was controlling my body, i had a physical emptiness, and i couldnt feel emotions, iwas upset over what was going on but i coudlnt actually feel emotions........

the worst was when i was comming out of it, when i could feel the difference, it was so............i dont know....... but i then realized how out of it i really was....... how gone i was...

i was almost in shoke the rest of the day, i'm so scared of that ever happening, i dont want ot ever go through tat ever again

i think i'm still in shock

i dont...... i mean what WAS that??!!
 
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no it didnt have any signs of a panic attack, well maybe when i was comming out of it, but i was very small....... very ....i dont know how ot explain it anymore
 
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Was this in a therapy session uponastar?

I think the therapist pushed you too far emotionally.
Picking on trauma until you shattered.
I'm not sure why you use the phrase "nothing was said to trigger it".

DP of your body, where you lose emotions, is a way to SWITCH THEM OFF.

I think you might have felt like a whopping amount of your body "lost it's christmas lights", like you vapourised into charcoal mist or something...
Dunno... dunno nuthin' anymore...

:(

I think that something EMOTIONAL WAS TOUCHED ON in the session, and you disconnected. You're more fragile than you realise...

I hate it when things dont have enough dictionary words to describe them...

I think you mentally overloaded...
 
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all we talked about for that first five minutes was what i'd done over the weekend....... litteraly that was it, just small talk, and i got all.............funky
 

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hey, upon a star

Sounds like your therapist touched upon something............like Ghost said, DP is a cut-off mechanism which operates when anxiety reaches a peak..........it affects emotional memory, sense of self, identity/character
......something to do with the hippocampus so I believe.....

like your Quote 'dont kick the puppy'......very true, some people dont know what dp is like until the experience it themselves............

Read your other posts.........you sound familiar, sure ive seen you on another forum somewhere , but cant think where.........

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poop , posted twice
 
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the dont kick the puppy is from DBT training. and a dr i used to work............. he's awesome, there's also a book called dont bite the dog

i might have been on.........depression anxiety bpd...........dbt............ boards who knows
 

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Well, it's over. move on from it as focusing on the symptoms won't make you feel better about it or figure it out. turn around right now and go.
 
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i cant though i keep noticing the feelign i had before it happned and i'm afraid of it happening when i'm alone or around strangers......
 
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person3 said:
Well, it's over. move on from it as focusing on the symptoms won't make you feel better about it or figure it out. turn around right now and go.
Person3, you nitwit.

I think you're quoting your mother here... for some reason. Some of us have Parents who speak to us in alarming ways...

Enough to make your head split open.
all we talked about for that first five minutes was what i'd done over the weekend....... litteraly that was it, just small talk, and i got all.............funky
..........it affects emotional memory, sense of self, identity/character
I think there was something about the therapists "manner".
 
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something about his manner? i've been with him for atleast a year now......... there wasnt anything he did out of the ordinary.....
 
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Then why did you dissociate ? I dont understand.

Y'know. The disappearing, going into black, totally engulfing into yourself feeling dp of head & body, dr of room, I had it when I was 16.

In a moment of grief overload.

I answered this thread, because I had the PANIC ATTACK happen afterwards and I couldn't believe how "cool" you played it. When I panicked when I was 16, I lost my flippin' mind.
I was holding onto my Mum, clinging to Her arm screaming and flooding with sizzling panic... my Mother ignored me.
I never dissociated that deep EVER again. I think I realised... no-one gives a shit
 
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i wasnt cool.......i was in shock........ i couldnt feel emotion while i was in it as i came out of it it was like a psychic that had been possesed suddenly colapsed................emotions came flooding back....

it wasnt just dissociation, it wasnt spacing out or fading away.....

it was someone else controling my body all i could do was sit back and watch........i couldnt feel any emotions..... i could be upset i could panic i couldnt have anxiety.........

it was the single most disturbing thing i've ver exoeriuence and i'm scared to death of it happening again
 
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Your nervous system shut off.

But you could still feel.

You lost huge parts of your nervous system. You disconnected from your "Aura", your sense of self had a severe fragment, then you came back, and the nervous system came switched back on, and you freaked from the loss of control. You lost connection to your Aura or something, a massive part of usual awareness disconnected or something...
 
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