Hi Pie25,
I'm exactly like you. My dp/dr started with a panic attack (though not on weed) 6 years ago. Now most of it is gone but the obsessive part of the disorder doesn't want to go away. Like you i'm thinking about my own consciousness. I obsess mostly over the fact that I think in words and pictures. It feels like I become way too aware about the strangeness of my own consciousness/existence and waves of anxiety run through my body whenever I become conscious of my thoughts (which happens 100s of times in a day). I feel dread as if i'm experencing consciousness for the first time and it's a big deal, even though I know perfectly that the way my brain works can't have changed since i'm a child. I wonder how people can live their life without being overhelmed by their own existence. It definitely seems like Pure OCD at this point. In the past 6 years, this is the only symptom that I had almost 100% of the time with occasional periods of calm.
If you want we can talk about it in private messages.
I'm exactly like you. My dp/dr started with a panic attack (though not on weed) 6 years ago. Now most of it is gone but the obsessive part of the disorder doesn't want to go away. Like you i'm thinking about my own consciousness. I obsess mostly over the fact that I think in words and pictures. It feels like I become way too aware about the strangeness of my own consciousness/existence and waves of anxiety run through my body whenever I become conscious of my thoughts (which happens 100s of times in a day). I feel dread as if i'm experencing consciousness for the first time and it's a big deal, even though I know perfectly that the way my brain works can't have changed since i'm a child. I wonder how people can live their life without being overhelmed by their own existence. It definitely seems like Pure OCD at this point. In the past 6 years, this is the only symptom that I had almost 100% of the time with occasional periods of calm.
If you want we can talk about it in private messages.
