you can help kill the loop by experimenting with your life. Try new things. Take a class on something you've always wanted to take but have been scared to (like acting, singing, etc...especially things that involve public performance or people or something daring...those help IMO)
Pick one of your habits...say, for example, you have to look impeccable before you go out. Wear the clothes you wore yesterday for a change (or if you want to...SLEEP in the clothes and if they don't look too bad, wear em out again...sounds silly but you need to do silly things sometimes. to teach yourself that you don't have to be so serious and in a rut.) lose a little control. kinda like a chinese finger trap. the more you try to control yourself and your life and control DP and control yourself from going crazy, the more you get stuck in it. When you loosen up, the finger trap loosens up. The chinese seem to be good at pointing out wisdom like that, even in a toy
DONT worry about not being afraid of panic attacks or whatnot. You're trying too much to "control" your recovery. eventually you won't be afraid of panic attacks, and it's OKAY to have anxiety. It's an emotion like everything else. We're supposed to have some anxiety. dP has been described as the inability to handle anxiety..your mind protects itself. so if you're anxious, let yourself be and accept it if you can (that is an extreme step for some, maybe later down the road for you if you're not ready? do other things...go to therapy, talk to someone, take meds if you need to, if you need help getting less anxious).
You're trapped in the illusion of being the person you feel you are supposed to be. DP/DR is telling you that it's so much worse than that. Epic horrors versus reality. What DP/DR is, is the lens through which your limited sense of self sees. Of course the world looks weird b/c you're only choosing to see it with part of yourself. Be your WHOLE self. Accept the good and the bad (easier said than done) about yourself. BUT, whilst in the process of learning this, have fun. You're not going to make DP go away- or get a date- by staying home wathching televsion. Speaking of television...think of DP AS television. Change the friggin' channel! Distract yourself. Go out, no matter how afraid you are (you will be rewarded with less fear in the end, so do it at least for the sake of that. Do what you fear most. When you change the channel from VH1 to ESPN, you no longer know what's on VH1 and it is not important. When you change the channel from DP to real life distractions, those become more important.
Read the "reality is what you feel" thread in "Regaining Reality". It's a thread that really helped me "break loose" in ways.
It's not recover that is important, it's the IMPORTANCE you place on DP/DR. You're never gonna figure it out. Stop watching yourself. Don't even look in a mirror, if that is something that makes you think too much of yourself. Just leave yourself wherever it may be and go out and do stuff.
Hopefully that helps...