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So it was all fine until a year and a half ago it started. And its been going on since then. I have a feeling I'm not present in real life. I don't know where I am and who is next to me. I mean I can see them but it feels like my body is on planet earth in time and space, but my mind and my spirit is somewhere else, its not in my body its detached. I have no sense of feeling, I literally feel nothing, really sleepy and tired all the time. Nothing feels real since like I said my mind and spirit aren't in my body, I am not in the real world surrounded by real stuff. If I try really really hard I can merge my mind and spirit with my body and be normal, present in real life. But then I start to feel and the feeling are terrible. When I enter the real world my mind acts like theres no past. Like I'm starting my life from this moment on. Life goes on continuously and cant be stopped at any moment and that's the normal way of living it. I guess that I was living normal and then this happened and now my brain doesn't recognize this period. When I focus on becoming normal and eventually do my soul feels hurt, I don't know how to feel. Everything that someone says being good or bad hurts me. I have been to a clinic that deals with mental diseases and they did the laboratory tests and the psychology tests, I'm waiting for the results. I don't know what to do, I cant go on like this. Suicide is becoming more and more of an option since I feel no pleasure in anything. When I go normal I feel terrible and when I'm like this I feel nothing at all. Can someone give me some advice, I'm just 16, my friends are all out enjoying their lives, I'm the one that is considering suicide because of this. Its really hard to go on like this. I'm very scared and its just that when I concentrate really really hard and become normal, it feels like this, scared, depressed, suicidal. That's all...