[EmiJ]

Hello! My name is Emi and I've been depersonalized for 7 and a half years. I'm wondering, has anyone who chronically suffered it, had it go away? What does it feel like when it goes away? Is is scary or overwhelming? Did it happen in the blink of an eye or gradually?

When I got my dp, I remember just having it suddenly. It started when I was in the hospital giving birth to my first born. I was only 17 and I have been diagnosed with ptsd. I'm working on EMDR in a matter of weeks and I'm wondering if it did fade, if it would be scary

 

[allison84]

Hi from what I've learned it goes slowly but I have heard of people having ot just go
It's not scary when it goes it just feels normal it's not a massive bang it's just like all normal you feel normal things seem normal things look normal and it feels great
I've had depersonalization for over 2 years but throughout that time it's gone at times and I felt good
It was great to feel like as normal human
One thing I had found when it went was I had more anxious moments

 

[EmiJ]

Thank you so much. I hope EMDR helps it go away for me. It sounds like it won’t be bad.

 

[Pondererer]

You got DP giving birth? That's a first to me!

Kinda makes sense tho, such a "big" experiece.

 

[EmiJ]

You got DP giving birth? That's a first to me!

Kinda makes sense tho, such a "big" experiece.

Yeah! It was very strange. It was a bad labor. And premature. The placenta broke off and it was apparently very dangerous. The doctors didn't really let on to anything to me since I'd always had been a bit sensitive. And during giving birth, dp hit. I asked the doctors and they just said "oh you're just tired, it'll go away" and it never did. I suddenly and abruptly developed a fear of doctors and medication and began having anxiety and panic attacks. I guess it's not common

 

[Gadgirl]

I have had DP/DR for nearly 3 years and the last year my DP has been reducing a lot, I no longer feel severely DP 24/7 numb body numb emotions, floating etc. When all is calm I feel ok but I can feel my anxiety more when the DP is not present

 

[Grindelwald]

I honestly it just feels like the real “you” that deep down you know is still there was just in hibernation or in hiding.

 

[bintuae]

Whenever I stop an antidepressant which always makes my dp/dr a lot worse, the following day or 2, something happens in my brain as my dp/dr suddenly disappear (returns after that and stays for long time tho). On that day, it's feels just like coming down from a terrible high. The first thing I notice is the film and fog in my eyes disappear, finally I can focus my eyes and see everything clearly. Another thing I quickly notice, is that I feel in control of myself and thus feel so happy and content. I feel human again and normal just like other people. I become amazed of how something we used to take for granted, can be a mental illness by itself. The physical and emotional numbness goes away and everything looks colorful and lively. Things have value to them which makes me motivated.

I'd say tho when all this happens, I feel a bit terrified cuz responsibilities of real life hit and I realize there are so many things to do. I also tend to act differently while in dp state (turn extroverted which is not my nature), and I become wary of people noticing the change.