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So what exactly are your arguments? Saying his arguments and treatment approach is illogical? Wow, big fat arguments there.
What are his arguments? Well, I named it. And you are right, you shouldnt just accept authority. But you shoud be open- minded and you made yourself very close-minded in regards to Michal based on what? Thin air.
And yes, he actually has a treatment approach. Baffling that you seemingly so knowledgeable about Michal isnt aware of that.
 

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But Im really not in the mood to argue anymore. I think you are a good guy and you mean well but I would actually recommend you to try just that: go out, live life, focus on whatever connections you feel instead of focusing on the symptoms which of course makes them worse. And give psychotherapy another shot. Doesnt have to be psychoanalysis. Just getting in touch with real people. Im 100% sure deep down you are aware of painful, shameful emotions. Of guilt. Self hatred. Dig deep and hopefully get better. If not, you tried, at least.
 

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So what exactly are your arguments? Saying his arguments and treatment approach is illogical? Wow, big fat arguments there.
I already gave an example.

What are his arguments? Well, I named it. And you are right, you shouldnt just accept authority. But you shoud be open- minded and you made yourself very close-minded in regards to Michal based on what? Thin air.
As I said above I read almost everything Michal published throught his career. The only things by him I did not read were publications that I could not readily obtain yet (like his dissertation). I also read numerous testimonials by sufferers about him and his clinic, both positive and negative. Basically I absorbed every information about Michal I could find and arrived at my conclusions about him. It's hard for me to fathom how this could be regarded as close-minded. If my opinion is based on "thin air", then this must apply to all of Michals work, because that's the source of my opinion about him.

And yes, he actually has a treatment approach. Baffling that you seemingly so knowledgeable about Michal isnt aware of that.
The last sentence doesn't really make sense or I don't understand it.

go out, live life, focus on whatever connections you feel instead of focusing on the symptoms which of course makes them worse.
This is really getting old. You just need to pretend that everything is normal and magically the depersonalization disappears. Seriously?

And give psychotherapy another shot.
I certainly don't have an interest that any of these crackpots makes 100€ per hour off my suffering without providing anything meaningful in return.

Im 100% sure deep down you are aware of painful, shameful emotions. Of guilt. Self hatred.
If you don't have arguments, just pathologize your discussion partner.
 

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He has a treatment approach. It is mentioned several times in the book.
It is indeed pointless to argue with you. I actually feel sorry for you and your close-mindedness.
And no: It isnt the old "just live life and accept it". It is an acceptance and commitment approach that fosters emotional reactions and connections. In real life. Ever heard of that? :D
 

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I haven't heard about Michal but personally I have been feeling that being more willing to live my difficult emotions also makes me more open to reality, but if it is true it is very very gradual for me too. And that emotional disconnection is the most important symptoms for me. So just from the summary it makes some sense to me and I am very interested in reading from him. But at the same time I think it is healthy to be skeptical from everything we read, and I think it is more important to see if it relates with me and my experience or if I believe it makes sense or if the scientific method is respected, rather than just if the person has good credentials. I have met several psychiatrists who I don't doubt had diplomas but were really useless or even harmful people. I have had good experiences with therapists having a psychoanalytical orientation, but I certainly had my worst as well with them. But perhaps psychoanalysis is worse in France in general. Here they are a force of authority and the worst nonsense comes from them (like literally blaming victims of pedophilia, propagating sexist cliches, using confusing language and double meanings to escape criticism, refusal of the scientific method, using outdated tests like Rorschar test in court, or this sort of things).
Personally I believe it is important that I am the one deciding which path I follow. The opposite would probably feel like dissociation to me.
 

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He has a treatment approach. It is mentioned several times in the book.
Yes and I pointed out some of it's various flaws.

And no: It isnt the old "just live life and accept it". It is an acceptance and commitment approach that fosters emotional reactions and connections. In real life. Ever heard of that? :D
Acceptance and commitment is basically "just live life and accept it", but packaged as "psychotherapy". There is also a whole book about acceptance and commitment as a treatment for depersonalization disorder, called Overcoming Depersonalization Disorder: A Mindfulness and Acceptance Guide to Conquering Feelings of Numbness and Unreality, which is also quite bad.

But perhaps psychoanalysis is worse in France in general.
If you live in France, did you attempt to join the PERSONA trial?

Here they are a force of authority and the worst nonsense comes from them (like literally blaming victims of pedophilia, propagating sexist cliches, using confusing language and double meanings to escape criticism, refusal of the scientific method, using outdated tests like Rorschar test in court, or this sort of things).
in academic psychology psychoanalysis is almost extinct. In Germany it still has a lot of influence as a treatment, but it plays the second fiddle. They share the traits you listed.
 

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He has a treatment approach. It is mentioned several times in the book.
It is indeed pointless to argue with you. I actually feel sorry for you and your close-mindedness.
And no: It isnt the old "just live life and accept it". It is an acceptance and commitment approach that fosters emotional reactions and connections. In real life. Ever heard of that? :D
i believe saschasascha. there are a lot of recovered people (duration of 20+ years) ive talked with and all of them said things that could be correlated with that affect-theory. most of the people who recover do connect to their affect intuitively i think.

most of you wont know, but there used to be a german dp-forum. the admin of that group was a woman who suffered more than 20 years from complete blank mind (she claimed to not have been able to recall the abc) and she made a perfect degree in law after that with an age more than 50. for me, to say that this just is spontaneous recovery or „luck“ is the biggest disrespect someone can do. and to be honest, if i listen to such stories, i really dont give a fuck about my symptoms because the only thing i think then is „what am i lacking?“. nothing.
 

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We should stop having ego battles. Sascha and Peter have already said everything they have after their first comments and proceed to bicker like hens. We seem to be doing that a lot. Unfortunately naltrexone and lamotrigine are perhaps even more bunk in terms of treating depersonalization than psychoanalysis but you and your treatment providers are welcome to try. I'd never stop someone from trialing these medications considering the nescient and neglected, almost nonexistent state of depersonalization treatment.

He has a treatment approach. It is mentioned several times in the book.
It is indeed pointless to argue with you. I actually feel sorry for you and your close-mindedness.
And no: It isnt the old "just live life and accept it". It is an acceptance and commitment approach that fosters emotional reactions and connections. In real life. Ever heard of that? :D
Sascha, it's very possible to heal in the presence of woo woo and sugar pills. Healthy people have a way of sorting their problems and healing themselves provided they have social support and aren't dealing with some fatal illness. Sometimes psychotherapies are a combination of woo woo and real, like how EMDR is a combination of hypnosis and reexperiencing therapy. Interestingly, hypnosis has been proven to work via suggestion, so it's like woo woo that can work.

Acceptance and trying to live a healthier life is a pragmatic move considering the borderline nonexistent state of depersonalization treatment, as I mentioned above. Taking part in trials can also be good so long as they're not overextending or harming you in any way.
 

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i believe saschasascha. there are a lot of recovered people (duration of 20+ years) ive talked with and all of them said things that could be correlated with that affect-theory. most of the people who recover do connect to their affect intuitively i think.

most of you wont know, but there used to be a german dp-forum. the admin of that group was a woman who suffered more than 20 years from complete blank mind (she claimed to not have been able to recall the abc) and she made a perfect degree in law after that with an age more than 50. for me, to say that this just is spontaneous recovery or „luck“ is the biggest disrespect someone can do. and to be honest, if i listen to such stories, i really dont give a fuck about my symptoms because the only thing i think then is „what am i lacking?“. nothing.
I think everyone who says they have a blank mind is a little bit of a goofball and could become a lawyer if they made a commitment and gave themselves an adequate timeframe. People with mental illness need perhaps more time to complete things. I believe this pseudo or exaggerated disability is especially true in people who make blank mind part of their identity for decades. Maybe I'm an asshole in this regard.

I had a phobia since my nervous breakdown that I couldn't do math. I had always done math in a conscious manner. Now I do math in an autopilot manner like everything else. People have phobias of academia or certain subjects and depersonalization fortifies it. The depersonalized people who say they can't go outside or do anything, they probably shouldn't operate machinery, but beyond that they're most likely capable and are merely having agoraphobia or something like that. The depersonalization makes them feel like their brain is crippled but it's not.
 

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i believe saschasascha. there are a lot of recovered people (duration of 20+ years) ive talked with and all of them said things that could be correlated with that affect-theory. most of the people who recover do connect to their affect intuitively i think.
Even if we assume that this was correct for people who recovered, how do you know that it also applies to people who never recover? After all, even if affect phobia was correct for some people with depersonalization disorder, this does not necessarily imply that it works for all patients, since depersonalization is likely a set of heterogeneous disorders sharing similar symptoms.

There is also another serious flaw about putting affect into a center of depersonalization theories: Not all people with depersonalization disorder also have emotional numbness. Most do, but not all of them.

most of you wont know, but there used to be a german dp-forum. the admin of that group was a woman who suffered more than 20 years from complete blank mind (she claimed to not have been able to recall the abc) and she made a perfect degree in law after that with an age more than 50.
Really? I'm not aware that Annolf had a degree in law. It's also difficult to believe for me, because in Germany getting good marks in the state exam is very difficult. I think a perfect score of 18 points is almost non-existent and even the highest mark of "sehr gut" is only achieved by about 0.1%. Law requires logical thinking and that's something, where she has always been very bad. She even had a hard time to correctly use the forum software. Moreover when the General Data Protection Regulation (GDPR) arrived she immediately shut the forum down for months, although this was totally unnecessary. In the end she bought a new forum software on the grounds that it was GDPR-compilant, but in reality the only notable difference was a link to a webpage with a generic privacy policy, which she could just have copied from somewhere else. Overall this doesn't look like something to me, someone with a decent understanding of german law would do. In fact I did not see any other forum react to the GDPR in such a way. Her emotions short circuited whatever tiny part of her brain is capable of logical reasoning. Do you really think someone who reacts to such a minor annoyance like that would be able to go thorugh the enormous stress of the law state exam?

Moreover, before she finally closed the forum, she boasted about her top marks in her psychology degree, which would not be special after all, because there is a grade inflation in psychology. Most people in Germany end their Master in psychology with a 1,x mark. Generally I would not take her as a role model to follow, because when I consider her conduct throughout the years, especially when she closed the forum, I consider her as seriously deranged and have doubts about her credibility.

for me, to say that this just is spontaneous recovery or „luck“ is the biggest disrespect someone can do.
Which leads to the question why people, who recovered, should be respected, especially when in almost all cases there is no real evidence that the recovery was from their own doing. I took a closer look into many people who recovered, especially recovery nazis. The way most of them behave really does not give me any reason to respect them, but in fact the opposite. Just look at how Tres behaves for example...

Furthermore recovery nazis do not respect the interests of people suffering from depersonalization disorder. They portray depersonalization disorder as universally recoverable, victim-blame people for not recovering, disinform people, are often arrogant, lack empathy and in their own groups ban people for the tiniest bit of criticism. Of course they are only a subset of all people who recover, but even in many recovery stories on this site, these traits are often visible, with recovered people acting as if they figured depersonalization disorder out and could lead patients into the promised land.

My exposure to these people taught me that respect is in many cases the last thing they should get.

We should stop having ego battles. Sacha and Peter have already said everything they have after their first comments and proceed to bicker like hens.
Says the right person.

Unfortunately naltrexone and lamotrigine are perhaps even more bunk in terms of treating depersonalization than psychoanalysis but hey you and your treatment providers are welcome to try. I'd never stop someone from trialing these medicines considering the nescient and neglected, almost nonexistent state of depersonalization treatment.
There are at least some clinical trials, while for psychoanalysis there are almost none.

Sacha, it's very possible to heal in the presence of woo woo and sugar pills. Healthy people have a way of sorting their problems and healing themselves provided they have social support and aren't dealing with some fatal illness. Sometimes psychotherapies are a combination of woo woo and real, like how EMDR is a combination of hypnosis and reexperiencing therapy.
As far as I know, the criticial component of EMDR is the exposition, everything else is either preparation or doesn't contribute anything. In particular EMDR is not really hypnosis.

Interestingly, hypnosis has been proven to work via suggestion, so it's like woo woo that can work.
There are studies showing significant effect for various conditions, but not sure if we can already regard this as a "proof". Hypnosis has been around for at least the 18th century, but still it never really gained grounds as the treatment of choice of any condition, although initally it used to be quite popular until the beginning of the 20th century.
 

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We should stop having ego battles.
I am not exempt of a bigger than average ego myself, I think. I'm trying my best to not vomit it on people, but sometimes I am really ashamed of my own thinking. I don't know if it is the same on other forums, but maybe there is something with DPDR and being super invested in thoughts?
 

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I never said you should respect Sascha for being recovered compared to you or me. While we're on the subject of respect you should give everyone the bare minimum of respect because that's the proper way to behave in society.

You're the one involved in most of the bickering and most prolific at it. I hope you put this much energy into improving your life and set a better example on DPSH in the future. It doesn't make sense to say we want depersonalization to be taken seriously and then behave like a turdsack. You're not oppressed in the conventional sense of the word. Far as mentally ill being oppressed you keep drawing all of these arbitrary distinctions between you and your fellow sufferers so you can be cuntish to them.
 

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I am not exempt of a bigger than average ego myself, I think. I'm trying my best to not vomit it on people, but sometimes I am really ashamed of my own thinking. I don't know if it is the same on other forums, but maybe there is something with DPDR and being super invested in thoughts?
I don't know how to measure an ego, only when one is getting on my nerves. Everyone is different and gets triggered by different things. Peter thinks he's oppressed and that many of his fellow sufferers are accidentally in on it because they're stupid.
 

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About EMDR, I don't know how to describe it other than a reexperiencing therapy. I guess that's what you meant by exposition. It has other elements that remind me of hypnosis such as the eye movement, happy or safe imaginary place, and objective to put you in a trance. The alternative might be simple reexperiencing therapy performed with a tape recorder, which is scary for some people. The thought of going through another psychotherapy modality or dealing with another quack is scary to me. So is the notion of inducing a flashback on purpose. Maybe the fluff of EMDR is meant to blunt the flashback.
 

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I've had dp/dr previously for about 1 year, and what got me out of it was dealing with the stressors in my life. Literally just improving my life by being more around friends, starting up my education, exercising, etc.

We all know this state is caused by constant anxiety, and what causes anxiety? Stress. If your needs are not being met. it causes stress, if your life circumstances aren't good, it causes stress. I invite everyone to try and analyze their life and try to improve on it. Personally, I found that I was extremely lonely and the main thing that healed me was being more around people. I was completely healed for 3 years, but then I started isolating myself again and what do you know! The anxiety returned, and it brought its ugly friend :rolleyes:

Hope my experience helps somebody.
 

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I've had dp/dr previously for about 1 year, and what got me out of it was dealing with the stressors in my life. Literally just improving my life by being more around friends, starting up my education, exercising, etc.

We all know this state is caused by constant anxiety, and what causes anxiety? Stress. If your needs are not being met. it causes stress, if your life circumstances aren't good, it causes stress. I invite everyone to try and analyze their life and try to improve on it. Personally, I found that I was extremely lonely and the main thing that healed me was being more around people. I was completely healed for 3 years, but then I started isolating myself again and what do you know! The anxiety returned, and it brought its ugly friend :rolleyes:

Hope my experience helps somebody.
I think it can be different for everybody and it's for each person to find out by reading about it, about other people's experiences and seeing their own experience.
Personally I have had long periods without stress and periods with really a lot of stress and my DPDR was really the same throughout.
Extreme loneliness certainly doesn't help me, but hanging around many people or working out five times a week don't make a difference for me.
What helps me currently is to be mindful of self validating thoughts that often come as the form of imaginary conversations, or paying attention to my own needs and validating my own emotions rather than my thoughts.
So it can be different for each person.
 

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I think it can be different for everybody and it's for each person to find out by reading about it, about other people's experiences and seeing their own experience.
Personally I have had long periods without stress and periods with really a lot of stress and my DPDR was really the same throughout.
Extreme loneliness certainly doesn't help me, but hanging around many people or working out five times a week don't make a difference for me.
What helps me currently is to be mindful of self validating thoughts that often come as the form of imaginary conversations, or paying attention to my own needs and validating my own emotions rather than my thoughts.
So it can be different for each person.
Definetly. Stressors can also come from within and be caused by many different things, often times we dont even notice when we are stressed. It all comes down to anxiety levels and what causes it and how to best manage it, which is different from person to person. Having an anxiety disorder like OCD is tough because its a self-reinforcing stressor that keeps my anxiety levels elevated even when I got no reason to be anxious. Having obsessive thoughts about the dpdr symptoms themselves is a horrible downward spiral that is tough to break but it can be done :)
 

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Definetly. Stressors can also come from within and be caused by many different things, often times we dont even notice when we are stressed. It all comes down to anxiety levels and what causes it and how to best manage it, which is different from person to person. Having an anxiety disorder like OCD is tough because its a self-reinforcing stressor that keeps my anxiety levels elevated even when I got no reason to be anxious. Having obsessive thoughts about the dpdr symptoms themselves is a horrible downward spiral that is tough to break but it can be done :)
It can definitely be done (at least it was for me). At some point you can be used to them, they dont get worse and they dont frighten you anymore. It's just the same thing over and over and they are not "interesting" anymore.
 

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It can definitely be done (at least it was for me). At some point you can be used to them, they dont get worse and they dont frighten you anymore. It's just the same thing over and over and they are not "interesting" anymore.
Yeah, typically for me however, my brain just finds another strange subject to obsess over. The real key is lowering anxiety overall and build self-confidence before the circle can truly be broken. At least in my experience... 😅
 
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