My past trauma was growing up in a family riddled with Narcissistic Personality Disorder. These people have pathological jealousy, are unable to love, are manipulative and irrational, and, worst of all, NEVER admit any responsibility. No normal person can have a real relationship with them and everyone who has an extended relationship with one comes out of it hurt and bewildered with low self-esteem. I only recently figured out how damaged I was by the personality disorders of my siblings and mother and my withdrawn father while I was growing up. I've joined a forum of others who've suffered from it and have learned so much, which, along with natural therapy, has helped me feel more normal and balanced, though I've got a long way to go. I've had DP and DR since my mid-teens and have been depressed much of that time as well.