I find these types of stories interesting. So you took the paxil because you were depressed and anxious. You say it helped dramatically but turned you into a zombie. Did you view the zombie state as an improvement over the depressed/anxious state?
I totally understand the need or desire to get through school or work. ADDerall did help me get through school by allowing me to basically hyperfocus on my work, to the detriment of everything else in my life at the time. It sucked, but it was necessary at the time (at least, I couldn't find any other way to get my brain to work and to hold back that constant panic attacks I was having. But it wasn't a long-term solution, and I had to lose many friendships in the process.
To each their own, though.
I didnt view the zombie state as good but not really as that bad either because I didnt care .....and this not caring came also from the meds
but it is not a good thing and I dont like that zombie state
the school I was in at that time was a huge problem for me psychologially . I was in a very insecure state at that time and had a lot of problems with myself which were caused by my father and traumas I have been through in my childhood but other than that also the "friends" , classmates and even teachers from the previous school being poison for me . and in this school my teacher and also some classmates including a "friend" were also putting me down and I felt very uncomfortable in the school . I endured all this shit just to get my graduation . fuck that
it is very weird ....I am not in any way the stereotypical "victim" or whatever . quite the contrary actually and a lot of people from that time would not even dare to talk to me in a bad way today . but I was very insecure at that time and when you have issues some people can sense it and will come after you . I wish I had the mindest of today back then and some people can really fuck your confidense up when you are in puberty
the right way would have been to either leave the school and go get some kind of education/training somewhere else (like literally showing the middle finger) or to stand up against those people including the teacher . I was just not ready at that time mentally