[shadowness]

whenever i do anything and it does not matter whether it is something i need to do or just want to do....it feels so pointless and i feel like i do not really know what i am doing...

yes...again i know it is obsessing and watching oneself...

i constantly feel like i am wasting my time...

i cannot work at the moment as there are no jobs available that i could do (and i am not just being negative...there are no jobs that i can do either because they are too far away or they are something i am not qualified to do/no experience and all that)...

i cannot go to college as the term to go back has not started yet and it is so far away i may not be able to travel there (due to travel costs and agoraphobia and this dp/dr)....

i know i need to stop complaining and just do things....

but whatever i do feels so empty...even when doing the things i love doing!

supose i am just depressed about feeling like this....

since i have had dp/dr i feel like i cannot enjoy life...as i feel like i am not living in the first place...

i think i just need to do more in my day....

keep more busy and get out more...

be a little more daring but not so that i frighten myself half to death haha

ah well...just thought i would post this as i really needed to say something....

if anyone has any comments or suggestions that would be great

thank you...

 

[shazada (jonathan)]

i know what you mean, i feel like that a lot - that even though there a few things i enjoy that take my mind of things, it feels like really they are just petty distractions, when the real problem is life in its entireity feels pointless. when i feel like that though, i find the best thing is to try and think of at least one thing in life that i know is worth living for, even if at the time it seems there is nothing.

 

[dreamcatcher]

the feeling of pointlessness is mainly down to been depressed.....

.....i have to fight that feeling day in day out, its like why am i doing this, whats the point.....there is no longer any enjoyment and nothing makes sense....

.....i was always told do the things you have to do, then do the things you want to do......only problem with that is what do you do when you dont know what u want to do?????

 

[shadowness]

thank you both for your replies...

i just feel like i am doing this to make up the time and to pass the time until i go to sleep....

i cannot stop feeling scared!

i feel awful...total dispare....i feel sick and i feel tired...

i do not want to live anymore...not like this anyways

 

[Guest]

I have this too.

Everything feels as if it was not worth the effort.

I used to call it "freezing on".

Like if I was frozen and cant move. I mean, when I want to do something and it seems not worth it then I am stuck, frozen. Like being chained up or something. It sucks.

 

[Guest]

hey soph i get that horrible doom feeling too...it's like no matter how much i try and get on with things its always there....like the grim reaper callin upon me or somethin'..god im so positive eh? lol!! i understand how you are feeling.....try and look after yaself take care xxxx