Hey guys, today was my first therapy session with a psychologist. I was extremely nervous since I havnt been to any kind of therapy for 3 years now. It was more of him getting to know me and asking why I'm there. I mentioned the dissociation and he didn't have much to say on it since we just started. At one point I got so anxious I started dissociating more and felt like I was a million miles away from him it was actually kind of scary but I tried my best to ignore that it was happening, or more so just try to accept that it was happening while we were talking. I think it was the first time I really felt that EXTREME "spaced out" feeling. Kind of confirmed for me that I am definitely still experiencing some kind of dissociation despite my doubts the past couple months. Honestly most of the session is a big blur to me, almost felt like it never happened. I'm hoping the more I go and talk about stuff it will help me in some way start to heal. I still have huge doubts but I'm trying to keep an open mind. He suggested I definitely do weekly sessions with him for a bit.