well today i hung out with a friend for a few hours and we'll it felt like either i wasn't there or he wasn't there. it just really sucked kinda, i mean i tried to enjoy myself somewhat, but i wasn't talkin much, and kinda forced it, which i don't like to do, but anyways i bought tickets to this rap concert. mos def and talib kweli. i saw kweli last year when i was normal and i could expierience life and what not but now this time mite not be fun, i hope it is a little. i don't want to not enjoy myself, but i can't help it. i wish i could get out of this so i can just be myself again.