Can't say that I feel much of this these days, but I know a lot of people do - and it's certainly "normal" within the ambit of the DP experience.
I think a major problem for you right now, livinghell, is that you're fixated upon how things used to be. I'm not saying this is "wrong", but it isn't helping you.
Yes things used to be better; yes they're not so good now. Yes it doesn't feel right; yes it's hard to bear.
But give a resounding no to any suspicion that it has to stay this way. It doesn't, and I doubt it will. But knowing that is not enough.
You have to "make" yourself do the stuff you enjoy anyway if want to get back to where you were. It may well feel "fake", but it's the most likely path to recovery.
Clearly what you're doing now isn't working. You need to push yourself - however hard it may be - to try and act "as if" you can feel again. Do it in small steps, by all means, but at least do something.
I hope things turn around for you soon.
I think a major problem for you right now, livinghell, is that you're fixated upon how things used to be. I'm not saying this is "wrong", but it isn't helping you.
Yes things used to be better; yes they're not so good now. Yes it doesn't feel right; yes it's hard to bear.
But give a resounding no to any suspicion that it has to stay this way. It doesn't, and I doubt it will. But knowing that is not enough.
You have to "make" yourself do the stuff you enjoy anyway if want to get back to where you were. It may well feel "fake", but it's the most likely path to recovery.
Clearly what you're doing now isn't working. You need to push yourself - however hard it may be - to try and act "as if" you can feel again. Do it in small steps, by all means, but at least do something.
I hope things turn around for you soon.
