weightless

does anyone else feel weightless? i seriously feel like i weigh nothing. i'm tired of hugging my mom and not feeling it. it really bothers me. i'm tired of grabbing things and not feeling it in my hand and i'm tired of typing this and not feeling the keys and not really knowing that i am typing this because it sure doesn't feel like it. like i can feel it kinda coming back gradually, but its not really noticeable. i really can't focus at school because of this i enjoy nothing and life isn't fun anymore.

last night i was actually ok thinking positive about playing basketball when i get better and other sports and going after girls and what not, but i can't do that because i don't even feel a kiss. i'm numb in the private areas too. my whole body and skin. i just don't really understand how this could happen. i hate living like this. living like i am just not alive, because i really don't feel alive.