Hello people
I will start with my story:
About a month ago, i got super high on very potent marijuana, during my high i was very anxious and panicked a lot . A few days after i could still feel a slight fog and distortion in my head. I worried about brain damage and if i messed up my head, but tried not to. Than I took a trip to my brother's house which is usually a very safe and welcoming environment. Even though i was happy there, i could still feel a sense of something not quite right or clear. 5 days into my visit this feeling got a little more intense and i worried about it a little bit more. After my visit i got home and it started escalating quickly, overnight i got very foggy and felt somewhat "high" 24/7. 2 days into this new condition i started worrying A LOT! I had an emotional break down and could barely face my family for fear of worrying them. I first told my brother and my sister in law about it on the phone and they thought it must be something physical that is giving me this "fog". i never told them about my emotions and depression at this point. Later that day i told my dad about, still not admitting my depression and severe anxiety. I now have an appointment with a counselor on the 8th of September, and i can not wait.
Every day i have at least one episode of severe emotions, panic and hopelessness. I cannot bear this, I have school in a few weeks, i want a job in the autumn and i wanted to find a girlfriend. But now all my motivation and drive has been destroyed. I feel like shit. I have read other people's experiences and have heard of this lasting for 20 YEARS! The thought of this lasting anymore than a month scares the living crap out of me.
Some other strange things i have noticed or feel:
-Going to sleep hoping to "wake up" to reality and mental transparency
-very vivid dreams
-anxiety
-only feeling a little better late at night after watching a lot of netlfix or youtube
-i love my family but being like this disconnects me with them and makes me very sad
To anyone with advice, who has conquered this or is going through the same thing as me, please drop a reply. This is a living nightmare.
