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im 16/female. on november 24th 2004, it was a wensday, the worst day of my life. i was a regular pot smoker not a pot head though. ive eaten weed brownies before and had no problems with them. but on november 24 in school my friend gave me a brownie suposidly a weed brownie, so a half hour after i ate it i seemed fine like i was baked no problems...yet

about an hour after i ate the brownie(i was in lunch), i blacked out but it wasnt like i passed out i blacked out in my mind(tho maybe i did pass out cause i was sitting down in a chair) and i was stareing at a wall for 5-10 minutes atleast, i dotn remember so when i snapped out of it i was still staring at the same spot on the wall and i was all of a sudden looking at a vortex(it was blue, grey, blackish mixed like a cloud) and i could see the future but i dont remember any of it now. so anyway after seeing a vortex and the future i was like holy fuck where am i. my friends were like wtf whats wrong with you.

i was tweaking out i couldnt feel my legs or arms at all so i kept moving them trying to keep them awake..it looked like i was someone on coke being all fidgety. so after what it seemed to be an hour(probly was only 10 minutes) the bell rang to go back to class and in my mind i was like "all right i can do this...just get up and walk back to class" i was afraid i wouldnt be able to walk, but i could.

my short term memory was horrible i couldnt remember things that happend 2 seconds earlier. so on my way back to class i was walking through the hallways and i got lost! i had no clue where i was! i was so scared! i felt really dehydrated so i stoped at a water fountain to have a drink and to spray some water on me to see if it would help wake me up, but it didnt. so i was still lost(the whole time feeling like i was going to pass out) so after that i was walking through the hallways and omg thank god i just happened to (legit) walk into my brother.

so now im about to cry i couldnt talk right but i was like "omg dave" he was like "what" i was like "can you please drive me home" he could tell i was ready to cry he thought i did acid or somthin, he first said "no go back to class" but then he was like "go get your stuff" so i barley made it to my class i dont know how i found my class and i got my stuff and i was like "um i have to leave" and my teacher was getting sketched out and I COULD NOT TALK RIGHT i got my way out of that situation and i found my brother and he took me home.

so i got home and it took me a long time to fall asleep but i did for alittle while. but when i woke up a couple hours later i still felt F**KED but alittle better, i was having an anxiety attack and i thought i was gona die but the next day i felt SO MUCH BETTER no DR/DP at all..or atleast i dont remember. later when i talked/thanked my brother for taking me home he told me my pupiles were HUGE. i bet if i stayed in school another 10 minutes i would have passed out.

i was wicked pissed because i dont think brownies had any weed or extremely high amounts(but i dont think the person who made them would put extremley high amounts, the brownies were only $5) but ive never had an experience like that in my life. my brother suspected that there was probly LSD in the brownies because i was hellucinating. also other people i know who ate them had similar effects they were pretty big pot heads and they all had like BAD trips. i dont get it. ever since that day i havent done drugs, clean for over 3 months :)

anyone know how long LSD stays in the body or if it was even LSD, and why do i now have dr or dp, i dont get it.
 

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im sure you might have just gotten really, really high. if it had lsd, i don't think you would have noticed your brother or manage to find your bookbag and leave the school so easily.
 

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i had a fucked up experience with weed and the dp/dr symptoms have lasted almost 6 months but i am feeling almost myself now. what i think is that the chemicals in your brain right now are really messed up from your horrible experience and will probably override them soon. try to stay patient and keep your anxiety as low as possible.
 
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Never touching drugs again - only had probably about three whole joints in my whole life (Put together from bits and pieces I have done!) But that was enough for me. Never again.
 

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lyssy said:
rula, are you better now?
i still have an occasional bad day, but overall my dp is fading. i saw my 1st psychiatrist ever today, i went in armed with ideas of meds i wanted to try to stomp this thing once and for all, but surprisingly he wouldn't prescribe any. his only advice was "stop feeding the fear" and that included me promising not to ever log on sites like this one cuz it "subconsciously activates the fear/dp process in the brain."

but i kinda like rambling in a place where ppl understand. :?

-ru
 

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Your brownie could have been laced with LSD but the symptoms you are experiencing now are not because of any drug left in your system. This happened to me at 13. I used to wonder if the joint was laced with acid but friends say it wasn't. What has happened is your body has chosen to stay in this DP/DR'd state for some reason or another. The actual reason behind it is unknown. There are many theories. I believe that after the drug (pot or lsd or whatever) leaves our system, our brain chemistry fails to reset itself to 'normal'. Everyone on this site will agree that in order for someone to develop DP/DR, they must be predisposed (ie., be naturally anxious). I have to be honest with you here, your symptoms may begin to fade tomorrow, in a few weeks, or even in a few months.... or they could last for years. As for myself, it's been quite a long haul. I should add that much of this disorder is self-driven. Knowing that, we must surround ourselves with positive people, things that make us happy, and de-stress our lives. Most importantly, listen to what your body is trying to tell you. Good luck. It's in your hands!
 

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I know this will sound harsh but I dont mean it as a judjement. When I took drugs and felt like s~#*t or it altered my perception that was no less than I expected, these are the properties of the substances after all.
I appreciate we are all misinformed by varying degrees about the effects of these things and we are all individuals affected differently. But It should be your expectation to feel 'weird' or different. Try not to focus on this as the begining of something more. :wink:
(Apparently LSD is metabolised very quickly within our brain.)
 

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There seems to be a lot in commmon with people getting dp/dr from pot.

I myself had a bad trip:

-I couldnt remember what was happening 5 seconds before
-I couldnt think straight at all couldnt hold thoughts
-High anxiety/panic attack during it
-I woke up the next day still didnt feel better

The main thing that seems to stand out to me is not being able to process what just happen a few seconds ago while we were "high".
 

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There seems to be a lot in commmon with people getting dp/dr from pot.

I myself had a bad trip:

-I couldnt remember what was happening 5 seconds before
-I couldnt think straight at all couldnt hold thoughts
-High anxiety/panic attack during it
-I woke up the next day still didnt feel better

The main thing that seems to stand out to me is not being able to process what just happen a few seconds ago while we were "high".
 

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I think everyone needs to quit doing drugs NOW! We obviously can not handle drugs! People like us, with anxiety or fear and paranoia should not do any drugs that fall into the hallucinogenic category (pot, LSD, Shrooms, strip 9, paotie or whatever). Most natural drugs are poisons. The drug is designed to harm you so you never again eat/smoke the plant!

Most drugs leave your system pretty fast, but they can change your brain chemistry forever! It is possible that we have done irreversible damage our your brain. I hope that is not the case.
I am scared to death of the trip that a hit of pot, LSD or shrooms will give me. I think that Hollywood's idea of hell is like paradise compared to tripping on acid!

Quit the drugs everyone. THEY SUCK!
 

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I say Amen to that --they suck! B/cuz I think for ppl like us, even if we didn't do chemical alteration that is permanent, in some way we keep on fearing fear of what it feels like to feel fear!! And that blows.
 
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