[Sidney]

Male 20. So here goes my story. 5 days ago on Friday I have smoked a weed joint at my friend's house. The strain is called white russian. I took like 10 shots. For some time I felt good but then my heart started beating really fast and I started to get worried. Then out of nowhere I started to run toward a fence. It didn't matter what direction I was running in I just had no control of doing it. Before I hit the fence I realized in my head: "This is it I'm gonna die." And I started to scream. Then I fell over the fence, hit myself pretty hard and started to see death I guess. I was feeling like I was getting buried alive. Then I saw flashes of my memories and even a universe like tunnel idk.(all in my head) Really weird. While this was happening I was screaming from the top of my lungs. One friend told me this was 10 minutes long. Then I regained conciousness. Then I went to my sisters house. She poured a lot of water into me and said it would help. I was still freaking out the whole time I was talking her. I felt like I was stuck in a cycle where I'm continuously and slowly dying. Then I started to vomit the water and I experienced the same stuff like I did after the fence hit. Then they called an ambulance and I almost experienced another panic attack or what's it called. It's been 5 days and I feel like I'm getting crazy. I feel like I'm still high sometimes and I'm worried that I damaged my brain and that I will slowly become crazy. I find it hard to watch movies or YouTube. I'm constantly thinking about what happened and about how I ruined my future and my life. I don't know what to do I can't even sleep because of this. I'm worried that I'll do something bad in my sleep. I don't know what's happening guys. Please let me know if you have an idea of what's going on.

 

[dpfairy]

hi Sidney! while researching about dissociative disorder, i came across this phenomenon that weed can trigger depersonalization/derealization. i have been smoking weed for 5 years now (almost everyday) and i have to say that i feel most disconnected from myself when i do smoke. though smoking it doesn't help with my dp/dr, and might actually be worsening it, i still partake because it still is my "coping" mechanism (that is my own issue lol).

here are a few articles i found but there are more out there

Depersonalization from Marijuana: How to Overcome It | Vistas.

This Is Why Smoking Weed Causes Depersonalization Disorder

"Why do I still feel high when I'm not?" - Depersonalization and Derealization from smoking weed are becoming more and more common.

www.dpmanual.com

Cannabis-Induced Depersonalization-Derealization Disorder

psychiatryonline.org

i don't know if this research is 100% true or accurate but i hope this makes you feel some solace that what you're feeling has happened to many others! it might be good to speak to a psychiatrist or psychologist if you have access to that. hope this helped!

 

[Bpsnarak]

I had a series of weed-induced panic attacks in 2018, also 20, followed by DPDR symptoms that last a long time. Yes, I felt like it was the end for my bright future and there was no way I could heal from it. But, while feeling extremely weird, trust me you will still have 100% control over your thoughts, habits, and personality. It’s just that you’re now operating in this weird autopilot mode for quite some time. And it will go away eventually— you’ll feel normal again.

In my case, my DP gets proportionally better as I recover from my childhood trauma. I think it’s the root cause of my DP; weed just brought it all up at once for me to process it.