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Do you guys question if you have really even woken up and that you are still in a dream. Do you find yourself even dreaming about this crap and even in your dreams, you have DP but it is much worse? Do you find that your DP is worse after just waking up. Have you ever fallen asleep at someone elses house and when you wake up, you have no idea where the hell you are. Sorry for all the questions. Just looking for some answers.
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Sorry to say YES to all of your questions,

Even in my dreams i feel the DR, and the dreams are so weird, many of them are "Lucid Dreams".

During the day i'm asking myself many times if really woke up this morning, and when i remember in things i did yesterday i'm asking my self if they happened in the dream or in reality, then i realize "oh, it's was reality".

Even in my home i feel that is not my same old home, everything look different, and i guess it's a part of the DR.

I also have something that someone here in the forum described as "Perception of reality always keep changing", and it's so hard to explain that feeling.

However 0.5mg Xanax seems to help a little bit.

Hope we'll find a cure soon.
 

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There is a cure. It's called a strong will. You must fight against it by living your life, and trying your HARDEST not to let it bother you and let it pass. It will go away if you heal yourself by proper diet and good coping skills. After being on this forum a while you will become more comfortable with this and you will find ways to cope. You can do it, you just have to believe.
 
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I've only been falling to sleep at hours like 3 or 4 recently. I'll be find then Bam! I start freaking out, and the adrenaline kicks in, heart rate goes up. Then i have to wait another while to get drowsy again so i can have another attack.

I've heard other people have this, but does anyone had other symptoms accompanying this like those creaking sounds that are in the house at night are really amplified and make you paranoid?
 
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I am having a really hard time with that as well. It is like you just start to drift off and then BAM!!!!, it hits you like a ton of bricks. I will start to feel very panicky, heart will start to beat very fast, and the DP will be very intense. I am sleeping like crap lately, which really stinks because that used to be a wonderful release for me before. Hang in there.
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Naps will do that crap to me every time, especially if I didn't get much sleep the night before (like when I work unusually early shifts). The last one I took threw me completely out of whack for the rest of the evening...it's kinda hard to explain, but it felt like I had "suddenly appeared" when I woke up, like I had never existed before that point, and all my recent memories were really, really distant. I was extremely groggy and could hardly see for nearly half an hour. It happens all the time, especially when I'm not in my own bed, and I'm friggin' sick of it.
 
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I decided to leave the tv on last nite. I didn't have that problem where it hit me. I just sortof drifted in and out of sleep at least 10 times. It was quite entertaining seeing the room lighten in slides becase of the rising sun.
 

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Sleep is a problem for me too. I've had quite a few nights where I am drowsy, drifting off into a dream, then my body just twitches and that's it I'm back awake again, except I feel really tired and more DRd than when I closed my eyes. That will happen a few times until I just go to sleep.

When I wake up, I'm better than I used to be, but often my eyes would be jiggling about like they were still in REM mode. I'd often have a slight headache and my vision would be really blurry at best. It would take about 2 hours and a couple of cups of tea to get myself going. It feels like a mild hangover, especially if I've been out the night before (I don't drink though).

My sleep routine is muddled any way, but it never really mattered before DR came along. Naps also mess me up, get me all DRd out and I have to go through that whole 2 hours of waking up all over again.
 

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I'm always questioning whether I'm awake or dreaming. I have DP even in my dreams, but not all the time. I have it all the time in my awake life, but in my dreams I can escape from it a lot... which may explain why it can be so hard for people to wake me up. My mind wants to stay DP free. When I awake in a different house it can take me awhile to figure out where I am, but then again this happens in my own house too. I woke up at 3am today freaking out. I started to have a panic attack and thought I was gonna have to go to the ER to calm down. But I took a xanax and was ok.
 

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You know, it's interesting for me to think about this because I remember back when I first started developing DP to a serious level, I would ask friends and such what they thought of the idea that we might all be in a dream. I would read a lot of Des Cartes in an attempt to find some kind of proof that this was "all real" and not some funky-assed dream (as a side-note, my favorite answer a friend gave me to this day was "if this was a dream - I would be in bed with that blonde over there"....she was pretty hot). In the end I realized that Des Cartes was actually funky-assed.

Now, this isn't meant to scare anyone - as it's quite possible those who ask this question now may actually be asking it at a different stage (I'm not saying that you should expect worse 'cause I was making these questions at the beginning of my disorder).

However, the commonality between our awake thoughts and the common-person's asleep thoughts can't be ignored.

Ah well, the important thing to realize, however, is that trying to solve your DP-induced questions won't get you anywhere; trying to understand how it can happen to a biological creature like us, however, does have an answer and is interesting to think about.....which is the nature of my incoherent, rambling, nonsensical, omnidirectional, potentially wasteful, for-God's-sake-someone-put-more-Johnny-Walker-in-my-Caffeine-free-Coke-so-I-can-fall-asleep post.
 
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Ben,
I may be reading into things somewhat prematurely, and if so I apologize for being overly assuming, but it seems like you have almost found an understanding or somewhat of a peace with this. How long have you been dealing with this?
Kate
 
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