Waiting For A Rainbow.

I'm very sorry for you loss Gem. It sounds like you are a good and caring person in your heart. Trust me, we all go through these things and even though they are very hard we have to persevere and make the best of every situation - that is at least what I think we all have to do. Plus the DP/DR makes these things sort of "stick in our consciousness" so it's not easy to cope. I'm sending my hopes and best wishes to you and yours. Don't give up. There will be a rainbow in your life one day or another, it can't rain all the time.