heyo! I've felt a change in reality for almost a year now, but only recently found a name to attach to it. i don't really know what caused it tho. i just remember waking up one day thinking: things... look weird. i just thought it was because of the emotional roller coaster I've been on. i'm bisexual. or at least i think i am, i'm still not really sure what i am, but all i know is that i am absolutely head over heels for another girl. anyways, i've been struggling with having a REALLY homophobic, christian family. and when i say "really" i mean my mom is head of three bible study groups and my older brother is planning to take a bunch of extra classes in college in order to become a priest. of course, i haven't told them, because they would flip out. The girl i'm (severely) crushing on is the only person who makes me forget about depersonalization. she's also bisexual, but i haven't told her, or anyone, except this random guy i met at a summer camp, and the only reason i told him was because it's not like i was ever going to see him again. I'm terrified of losing her, so i just think: it's better to have her as just a friend, then not at all. i imagine when, no if i come out to my family, i'll also tell them about depersonalization. anyways, i haven't had anyone to talk to about these weird and confusing thoughts and i'm getting tired of slipping subtle messages into conversations and sitting in my mom's car so that no one can hear me talking to myself, so i'm turning to this website. don't fail me now.