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Quick Overview
Been experiencing marijuana induced DP for about 16 months now.
Took 30mg for a month.
50mg for 4 months.
Benefits: Improved focus, increased productivity, less DR attacks.
Drawbacks: Insomnia, Irritability, apathy, decreased creativity, "zombie-like" personality, increased anxiety ... Rage/panic attacks/crying spells/confusion (when crashing at the end of the day, or when skipping doses)
I've decided to quit Vyvanse. I'll update how that goes in this thread.
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My Experience
I started Vyvanse (30mg) in March 2015. At first I felt fantastic (well, pretty ok for a person with DP). Barely ate, felt very productive and organized. I was overly-talkative for a while too. I liked that it helped me work my part-time job.
However, after about a month the effects began to fade. It would peak for about 2 hours and then by the early evening I was so spaced out I began to get back into bad habits. So I got my dose upped to 50mg. I became very productive (well, it pretty much exaggerated my obsessive compulsive tendencies and I was often preoccupied with cleaning, organizing ... which kind of backfires to be honest.)
I barely slept at all for a long time. 2-6 hours a night.
After a month or so things got really screwed up because I started trying to change my doses by myself. Some days I skipped doses (because I pulled all-nighters, etc.). Some days I divided my dose so I took some around 10am and then the other half at like 1pm.
For a while I couldn't decide whether or not I wanted to be on these meds, hence the inconsistencies. Bad bad idea.
As a musician/poet/artist, I've found that this whole Vyvanse experience has really dulled my creativity. I hardly write anymore, barely play my guitar, never record my music. And I don't feel inspiration anymore. I don't feel anything. I don't feel much for my friends or anyone. I'm constantly annoyed and tired and I get so stressed out that I either explode in a rage and start literally punching my floor and scream or cry my eyes out for 3 hours straight. It is not OK anymore.
I see no point in the benefits anymore if I'm even less of a person now.
I'm sick of going to some psychiatrist who doesn't care what happens to me and spending so much money to feel like a complete zombie.
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TL;DR: The short term benefits may seem great, but it becomes a horrible rollercoaster of tolerance building, crashes, withdrawals. If you're not a healthy person right now, you'll probably end up more damaged.
The only thing that really helps me anymore is cigarettes so. that's my one and only crutch now, I suppose.
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Other prescription meds I've tried:
-Zoloft (about 6 weeks, then I was forced off it in the hospital. Basically made me an extremely suicidal, hungry, and tired person. Slept half the day, sulked in the waking hours, it was horrible)
-Effexor (about 3 weeks, then I cold turkied. Was bed ridden for a week during the initial withdrawal. Again, it just made me sleepy and hungry. Horrible.)
-Xanax (.5mg, though I usually only take half a tab. I only use it when I absolutely cannot sleep .... from Vyvanse induced insomnia. If anything it makes me more spaced out. Would not recommend except for sleep. Honestly the side effects/withdrawal aren't worth it either.)
Been experiencing marijuana induced DP for about 16 months now.
Took 30mg for a month.
50mg for 4 months.
Benefits: Improved focus, increased productivity, less DR attacks.
Drawbacks: Insomnia, Irritability, apathy, decreased creativity, "zombie-like" personality, increased anxiety ... Rage/panic attacks/crying spells/confusion (when crashing at the end of the day, or when skipping doses)
I've decided to quit Vyvanse. I'll update how that goes in this thread.
----
My Experience
I started Vyvanse (30mg) in March 2015. At first I felt fantastic (well, pretty ok for a person with DP). Barely ate, felt very productive and organized. I was overly-talkative for a while too. I liked that it helped me work my part-time job.
However, after about a month the effects began to fade. It would peak for about 2 hours and then by the early evening I was so spaced out I began to get back into bad habits. So I got my dose upped to 50mg. I became very productive (well, it pretty much exaggerated my obsessive compulsive tendencies and I was often preoccupied with cleaning, organizing ... which kind of backfires to be honest.)
I barely slept at all for a long time. 2-6 hours a night.
After a month or so things got really screwed up because I started trying to change my doses by myself. Some days I skipped doses (because I pulled all-nighters, etc.). Some days I divided my dose so I took some around 10am and then the other half at like 1pm.
For a while I couldn't decide whether or not I wanted to be on these meds, hence the inconsistencies. Bad bad idea.
As a musician/poet/artist, I've found that this whole Vyvanse experience has really dulled my creativity. I hardly write anymore, barely play my guitar, never record my music. And I don't feel inspiration anymore. I don't feel anything. I don't feel much for my friends or anyone. I'm constantly annoyed and tired and I get so stressed out that I either explode in a rage and start literally punching my floor and scream or cry my eyes out for 3 hours straight. It is not OK anymore.
I see no point in the benefits anymore if I'm even less of a person now.
I'm sick of going to some psychiatrist who doesn't care what happens to me and spending so much money to feel like a complete zombie.
----
TL;DR: The short term benefits may seem great, but it becomes a horrible rollercoaster of tolerance building, crashes, withdrawals. If you're not a healthy person right now, you'll probably end up more damaged.
The only thing that really helps me anymore is cigarettes so. that's my one and only crutch now, I suppose.
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Other prescription meds I've tried:
-Zoloft (about 6 weeks, then I was forced off it in the hospital. Basically made me an extremely suicidal, hungry, and tired person. Slept half the day, sulked in the waking hours, it was horrible)
-Effexor (about 3 weeks, then I cold turkied. Was bed ridden for a week during the initial withdrawal. Again, it just made me sleepy and hungry. Horrible.)
-Xanax (.5mg, though I usually only take half a tab. I only use it when I absolutely cannot sleep .... from Vyvanse induced insomnia. If anything it makes me more spaced out. Would not recommend except for sleep. Honestly the side effects/withdrawal aren't worth it either.)
