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I got DP/DR in December and finally it got better in the past months...but lately my mum got diagnosed with cancer and I was very anxious and nervous all the time. My DP/DR was away, but now where she's in hospital it's fully back and stronger than ever. I feel like really nothing is real, I have an extential crisis and my dreams are more realistic than my life and I'm scared I may can't tell the differemce between reality and dreams... I'm also scared I may be delusional..I know how schizophrenic people think (I read too much) and I also get this thoughts "What if someone can read my mind" "Maybe cameras do watch me" I'm still aware that it's not really possible, but maybe I already started to belive in.. Anyway today I was in the bathroom and suddenly I heard my mum (who's in hospital) calling my name & saying something like ofc I don't reply or so... It felt like I was in a dream for a few sec and I was really worried, bc she's not here and I thoughtcfor a sec it's real... It was from somewhere in the house... Was this a first psychotic sign?? Besides that I'm very tired, exhausted and really worried. I'm sure I develope schizophrenia...
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We can mishear things without being mentally ill, take it easy. One instance where you heard your mom call you does not mean you are crazy.

The thoughts "what if someone can read my mind" stem from the obsession you have with schizophrenia. If you never knew what schizophrenia was you wouldn't have that thought. I've been having thoughts like "what if i thought this van in front of my building were CIA agents spying on me", it's because i read a lot of stories about schizophrenics and it is my biggest fear.

It is the purpose of your brain to create "what ifs", if it didn't it wouldn't be working properly. The problem is you are giving too much weight to the passing thoughts, this is also known as pure-ocd (lookup schiz-ocd you'll see hundreds of posts of people that feel just like you and they're not crazy)

Just tell the thought next time "so what? So what if people can read my mind? I dont care, i dont care if i go crazy, just bring it on"

This is the only way to beat it. Stop seeking reassurance, stop asking people if you're crazy, it will only fuel the fear, you have to endure it and not run away
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