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Just recently I was working for a company that I was unhappy with but I needed to change from my old job so the last week that I was there I had a huge anxiety attack and ended up quitting a few days later but that anxiety attack really left me disconnected from myself and the depersonalized all over again mind you I haven’t dealt with any of these feelings for about four years now and of course it happens here at this new job but this time was different I started to feel like everything I looked at was just looked weird And I started to feel like every faint noise I started to hear I would try to focus on so I can make sure I’m actually hearing it ..to the point where I hear a really low pitch of a siren and I live in Brooklyn so there’s cars cop cars and ambulances passing by all the time so I know when I’m hearing it and I know when it’s actually not there but for some reason my hearing is picking up on the slightest noise it and I’m thinking that I’m hearing things but it’s really hard for me to distinguish whether I’m actually hearing things or maybe I’m hearing things from a distance and my hearing is just hypersensitive . I would look at certain things and it would look like the resembled a face but I know I’m at being a face but if it’ll be like two dots next to each other I’ll be like oh my brain will register it as eyes it would just start to look like a weird shape or shadow I don’t know how to explain it without making it seem like I’m hallucinating because I know what I’m seeing is there but it’s just my brain registering it as something else so for instants cars I’ll look at the front of the car and it’ll have such a pronounced look to it when it comes to the headlights and the grill like it’ll look like a face but I know it’s not and I don’t see actual eyes but that’s just the effect it’s having on me it’s almost as if the effect that I’m getting from things I look at are kind of threatening and weird that’s how my body or my mind is taking it as it’s so hard to explain and it’s hard to put into words especially while typing . It’s kind a like when you go to a therapist and they show you a set of pictures and they’ll ask you or hey what do you see some people say hey I see a face some people say I see a tree it’s like is if my brain is registering everything as being facial like and I’m asking myself all of the worrying that ive doing about potentially having schizophrenia if I’ve caused a break in my brain to now almost start to want to see things it’s really weird and I don’t know how to further explain it does anybody know what I’m talking about I hope so.. all I know is this is not the first time I’ve had an anxiety attack and been D personalize it’s happened to me almost 5 times between the ages of 17 and present day and sometimes it lasts for months upon months close to a year sometimes it’ll last for a week or two but I’ve never experienced this symptom before and it’s scaring me. I just want to live a normal life and I’m at the point where I’m probably going to be getting engaged soon settling down hopefully start a family and this is the last thing I need on my plate is any type of hallucinations or getting to the point where maybe I become schizophrenic.... Cause i feel like ive now done it to myself... thoughts?