Been taking venlaxafine (effexor) 75 mg extended release for 3 days now. Only had two doses so far as I'm supposed to have one every other day. I'm going to start taking 35mg xr once a day from now though. I think that is better for my system. Anyway, feeling a bit wired and super aware. I'm not a total mess like I thought I might be. Been taking the odd 2mg diazepam here and there. Getting bit of insomnia but think that is pretty common at first.
Today I've been thinking about the relevance of medication in our lives, specifically antidepressants. I wonder if somehow they are messing with our fate by changing our life paths so that we continue with things we perhaps might have abandoned due to pure misery of depression e.g. poor relationships, jobs, where you live. But then again, I know what it feels like when an antidepressant works. You feel like yourself and you start making positive choices. I have to remind myself of that.