Wow I think I love you, LOL.. Really your state of mind is exactly as mine, I want to help people even now and I am not even cured.. anyway THANK YOU! means allot to me.. I am trying to do anything and everything and being psoitive and seeing this as only a state of mind and not every stupid symptom as a living hell... In fact I am going to Aruba for 10 monts internship 2 days from now and it scares the shit out of me. I dont know anybody there and will go all alone but I read all the time to change your environment, meet new people and continue your life.. Lol maybe I take it too seriously but hell fuck DP I can do this and I will show my DP that it can go and bother someone else (hope not) because there is nothing to win here and nothing it can stop... I do HATE this feeling because I want to enjoy everything, the whole journey and people and island thing. I know I will enjoy it sort of but far less, but hey I wont lett it stop me... You post makes me feel like its the right choice again.. Thank you and congrats!!!