[kchendrix]

I am really feeling like I have improoved but not to where I want to be.. I can go along for quite awhile now in the ZONE, where I am not obsessing etc. But all the sudden there will be a Flash...Like Am I really here, AM I real....I don't feel like I am me... etc.... and Panic on the inside but I remain normal on the outside...

Or I become suddenly aware that things look rather dream like. For those who have had some success with recovering, what do you do about these flashes...I try to move on and not focus and not start repeating my name and where I live etc,, to check.... Any other suggestions..

If I could just stay in the zone and not have these flashes ,,,I think I would be able to beat this thing entirely......

Don't get me wrong, I still have some anxiety issues, depression issues. But I have been able to get through periods of time without thinking those obsessive thoughts.. which is a little relief.

thanks
KC

 

[kchendrix]

so I take it from the lack of comment on this thread no one has had sucess at getting this far .... and having the flashes as I described above.

Well in that case let talk football......... not really because then we would have a problem.. American footbal or Soccer.

:lol:

Peace
KC

 

[agentcooper]

hey kc

i know exactly what you're talking about. well, sort of, 'cause i have lots of dr and not a lot of dp. i just think to myself "this will go away...it always does"...and eventually it goes away. i've been having really bad days lately from being more stressed than usual, i think.

 

[Milan]

KC, I'm probably at the same point in this disorder as you. You go on for a while not worrying about it then out of the blue you get a thought, perception and your right back where you started....panic, fear, DP/DR.

There is nothing much you or me can do about this at the moment apart from keeping busy and distracting ourselves with as many activities as possible. An idle mind is the devils playground. Just keep on keeping on. It must pass one day. We're in this together with all of our other mates on this board. My thoughts are with you all

 

[Milan]

Well in that case let talk football......... not really because then we would have a problem.. American footbal or Soccer.

Even more combos:

In Sydney, Aus. the footy is Rugby League
In Melbourne, Aus. the footy it Australian Rules.

Then you also have Rugby Union

Confusing :? :?:

 

[kchendrix]

So there are many forms of Football, isn't that Ironic, probably just as many variatons of Anxiety/ Depression DP/DR....

Yep I go along and things are good and than like a lightening bolt.... ZAP
I don't feel like IM Me, Who Am I,, What Am I,, Why does everyone else look so involved in life , I bet their not thinking so much about AM I REAL... etc....

It comes out of the blue.... but then I try to get busy and loose myself in something....

 

[LISA NICHOLS]

i understand how you feel i too am like that its crazy!!!!!

im tryin to stop it but it just happens!!!!!!!!!

 

[Da'Burgh]

Yes, KC, I know what you're saying. It goes in and out a lot at this point in the disorder. Seems to just wax and wane a little bit at times. We're just sloooowwwwly gettin' there.

GOOOOOO STEELERS!

 

[jake]

Yeah KC but you put a positive spin on the topic, ups and downs of getting well. ie; going with the assumption that we will or at least improve greatly.
And uhhhhh Da Burgh....what can I say you guys came to the Jungle today and beat us around the football field, sigh----We;ll getcha next time, Go BENGALS!!!

 

[M A R S]

Some of my unreal feelings are subsiding, but only to be replaced with obsessive thoughts about my health.

Knowing i have issues such as diabetes and high blood pressure but doing nothing to fix them makes me seem crazy!

 

[Dreamer]

Odd for me to say this, but sometimes, in some ways I feel I'm "coping better, much better" with this type of thing.

My chronic DP/DR is less, MUCH less than in my 20s and 30s. Also, for some reason, knock wood, my "bad flashes" -- best I can connect with what you all are saying -- are less.

I say to myself when these occur, even mild ones where the DP/DR says, "I'm still here, don't get too confident about anything...", ... anyway, I say, "OK, this is that damned perceptual shift again. It will pass. And I FORCE my mind to think of something else, anything else."

In the past I wasn't able to do this at all. I do agree that there is CBT like this that works, but it is a long hard process of "deconditioning." I do it every day, best I can.

Also, think of deja vu experiences. They come out of nowhere and fade. I think of it that way. This will pass. No big deal.

I could NOT have done this for the first 40 years of my life. It has really taken so many things to get this far. And there's something to be said for that.

I must be loopy to be saying this :shock: ... but, this is the uphill battle of this ridiculous disorder.

Keep the Faith. 8)
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