These past 2 and a half months have been great. No DR. I am about %75-80 back to normal These last two days were my "bad" days but they were NO were as a bad as 5 months ago. I had a little DR for the last two days and a little bit of fear came along but nothing big. I hope these longer and longer streaks of good days is a sign of me coming back to where I was 1 year ago. The bad days are getting more and more spread out and less and less scary. Like Ben told me, I think I am now in the "phoney" robotic stage where I feel a little fake and empty but the fear and panic is gone.
I HOPE THIS IS A GOOD SIGN. I HOPE THAT DAY WHERE I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND SAY "GOSH THOSE THOUGHTS WERE ABSURD" AND HAVE EVERYTHING CONCRETE IN MY MIND COMES SOON..........
PLUS I HAVE ARRANGED MY FIRST PSYCHOTHERAPY SESSION. I THINK I NEED TO REALLY KILL THE BEAST INSIDE ME THAT HAS BEEN LURKING FOR 7 YEARS. I AM SCARED TO BE HONEST SINCE I AM A BOTTLED UP PERSON.
SWEEP THE DIRT OUT FROM UNDER THE RUG
-Andy
-Andy
I HOPE THIS IS A GOOD SIGN. I HOPE THAT DAY WHERE I WAKE UP IN THE MORNING AND SAY "GOSH THOSE THOUGHTS WERE ABSURD" AND HAVE EVERYTHING CONCRETE IN MY MIND COMES SOON..........
PLUS I HAVE ARRANGED MY FIRST PSYCHOTHERAPY SESSION. I THINK I NEED TO REALLY KILL THE BEAST INSIDE ME THAT HAS BEEN LURKING FOR 7 YEARS. I AM SCARED TO BE HONEST SINCE I AM A BOTTLED UP PERSON.
SWEEP THE DIRT OUT FROM UNDER THE RUG
-Andy
-Andy
