Soon, it'll be almost a year of living with both depersonalization and derealization for me.
I've gone through many ups and downs, fluctuations in symptoms and harboring new ways to cope,etc.There has been negatives--as well as positives, which I have experienced regarding it. I suppose what I would consider as the positives is that I luckily haven't had those irritating and infamous "unreality" questioning thoughts resurface, which is something I remember struggling with immensely during my first few months of DP/DR. I have also learned more about myself, and learned to be a bit more appreciative of the willpower I have. Even though it was weak at times, I still managed to push myself through the darkest/hardest of times and keep on living. It took time, but I was even able to leave this website for a short while, only coming back when bored or just wanting to check up. I wasn't really recovered per se, but my symptoms weren't much of a bother anymore and could be pushed aside as I distracted myself and got out more. Now onto the negatives...
So unfortunately, I sort of "relapsed" recently with my DP thanks to my anxiety and hyperventilation issues, and it got pretty bad towards the end of June. I felt as though I was almost back to square one, and it really devastated me because I actually had improvement and now it was gone. The whole month of July was hell tbh, and currently I am still struggling a bit due to that. The symptom which is most annoying to me right now is the chronic feeling of being physically numb & my senses being dull along with it...it's a bit hard to explain. I've always kind of had this feeling from when I first developed DP, although it sort of went away during the time I was able to push my symptoms aside as I said in the first paragraph. But, I guess I'm going to have to make an appointment to get blood tested, just in case this is actually being caused by something other than DP/anxiety. But I kind of doubt it's caused by something else, because I noticed that the feeling gets more severe during anxiety/hyperventilation and lessens down a bit after I calm myself/perform grounding techniques. I really do hope I can get rid of this darn feeling soon.
Uh that's all I guess, just wanted to write a sort of recap/update thing to get it off my chest...
So when you get high anxiety or panic attacks is that when DP/DR takes places or does it take places anytime without the anxiety and panic attacks because I am confused. I am learning more about DP/DR and i feel like I may have DP/DR but I am not sure.
So when you get high anxiety or panic attacks is that when DP/DR takes places or does it take places anytime without the anxiety and panic attacks because I am confused. I am learning more about DP/DR and i feel like I may have DP/DR but I am not sure.
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