I dunno, I feel like my optimism coming back. I know it's only temporary - I'll probably feel shitty again in a couple days, but I'll enjoy this while it lasts. I just have to remember that no matter how long it takes, I'll be out of this hell hole eventually. I just have to wait for that day, and then I'll be able to live again. Or for the first time, because I really don't remember feeling alive before this all started.