Still, I have to say things that I don't see people talking with dp/dr.
My speech is totally blocked and I cant express my thoughts in words, I just say something small, usually a short comment, like I'm kid. Not to mentio n that I cant keep eye contact with everyone.
Socializing, even with family members is difficult. I'm just passive observer, cant participate in conversation.
In coffe bars and elsewhere I dont feel like I'm fitting. Everyone seems confident and everyone seems enjoying their life. I'm feeling like I'm ghost but at same time like everyone observing me and make judments about me.
I was swimming in the sea today, but when I was on the beach I felt such disconnected and started question reality.
I always had existential thoughts and I was a deep believer, but now I dont believe in anything. I'm pshysically alive but not feeling alive. Everything is numbed out except feel of fear and dread. And I'm locked in my head, not present in the moment, stucked in obssessive thought of past what been happening to me.
My speech is totally blocked and I cant express my thoughts in words, I just say something small, usually a short comment, like I'm kid. Not to mentio n that I cant keep eye contact with everyone.
Socializing, even with family members is difficult. I'm just passive observer, cant participate in conversation.
In coffe bars and elsewhere I dont feel like I'm fitting. Everyone seems confident and everyone seems enjoying their life. I'm feeling like I'm ghost but at same time like everyone observing me and make judments about me.
I was swimming in the sea today, but when I was on the beach I felt such disconnected and started question reality.
I always had existential thoughts and I was a deep believer, but now I dont believe in anything. I'm pshysically alive but not feeling alive. Everything is numbed out except feel of fear and dread. And I'm locked in my head, not present in the moment, stucked in obssessive thought of past what been happening to me.