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i might have posted about this subject before but it is something that is really bothering me right now...

i cannot face travelling by train or bus anymore...and now travelling anywhere by car or just walking is too much...

when i get into a car or start walking i am fine...but as soon as the car starts moving or i start walking away from somewhere....i feel like i am seriously losing my mind...i feel like i just cannot handle the movement at all...as if i have gone blind and nothing is there at all....nearly comeplete detachment and it REALLY scares me!

my body just goes completely out of it and my skin starts burning and all sorts! my head feels so spaced out i just cannot take it and i end up having to go back from where i came from...not that that helps it either as i feel so detached and gut wrenchingly numb and shakey...

when travelling i do not sit there saying "god i feel numb" and "i think i am going insane" or anything like that...i am just saying that it is just anxiety and dp and dr...nothing serious is going to happen...yes it is uncomfortable but everything is fine...

but i just cannot get it into my head!!!

the physical sensations i get are just so strong, so intense that i feel like my head is going to actually explode!
i know that it is not but that does not help matters as it FEELS to damn intense.

focsuing outward is doing nothing...seriously nothing for me! i do not think about dp or dr but no matter what i feel completely detached and scared to death of everything and anything i do and i am finding it so damn hard to cope! i am trying...REALLY BLOODY TRYING! but nothing seems to be helping!

i am meant to be travelling to Kent (2 hours on motorway) in about a week or two to see my nan and aunt....i so want to see them...but at he moment i cannot even sit in a car up the road let alone travel 2 hours!!!

please someone help...this is getting so hard...thank you for reading...
 
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I can relate somewhat

Yesterday I went to New York City, now this isn't the first time that I have gone to NYC, but never the less for part of the ride up there I felt anxious & uncomfortable. Maybe part of that was because I had to sit in the middle for the entire ride and I could barely walk when I got out of the car, but still. And everytime I go to NYC & we start walking around its like I feel so weird. Almost like a sensory overload because everything is so fast paced and its just non stop walking. When we got to a restaurant to eat, I took a Klonopin which did help me feel more relaxed because prior to that I thought I was going to loose my mind.

I have no problems driving though, or taking a bus. I haven't been on a plane in a long time, So I have no idea how I would react to that.
 

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one of the symtoms im afraid...the further you travel the more unreal you feel...its totally fucked up but you gotta keep pushing the boundarys....now i have to do it without a drink inside
 

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possibly go on a particular short walk from your home every day. hopefully as it's the same familiar walk it will become part of your routine and hence not so scary. once you're ok with this start varying it a bit etc. i think its important to continue going out on journeys.
 

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Thats my fear as well. Although not as bad now. Once i start getting out, im still going to be worried that this will happen in pubs, and im going to be watching them all the time. I had my drinks spiked this was the cause i think, it turned into an obsession, and i think the cause of my tablet phobia :roll: i wouldnt buy from supermarkets if things (seals etc)were broken, or go in certain supermarkets where the druggies went, (and thought it would be funny to 'put something' in the food which then it would 'just be my luck' to pick that particular item up)
 

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Thats my fear as well. Although not as bad now. Once i start getting out, im still going to be worried that this will happen in pubs, and im going to be watching them all the time. I had my drinks spiked this was the cause i think, it turned into an obsession, and i think the cause of my tablet phobia :roll: i wouldnt buy from supermarkets if things (seals etc)were broken, or go in certain supermarkets where the druggies went, (and thought it would be funny to 'put something' in the food which then it would 'just be my luck' to pick that particular item up)
 

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thank you for the replies guys...really appreciate it :)

but no matter how far i go or how often it just does not change!

i travel everyday...not very far but i do...i am out the house nearly everyday but nothing ever changes...

i have changed my life so much to help get out of the dr and dp and focus forward but nothing seems to help...

i just hate this so very much...
 

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Yeah, i suppose i get sort of the same thing in everyday travelling. It sometimes starts off almost like dizziness and then im suddenly DRed.

But strangely i thought this thread would be about something else, because when ive gone backpacking and otherwise travelling recreationally overseas somehow my DP/R really fades into the background (especially DP if its possible to separate them).

I would have thought the sensory overload of foreign cities and countryside with their sights/ smells etc would really set me off but actually it was opposite. Possibly because everything really was foreign and weird and strange and everyone was a stranger it somehow acted like the biggest of distractions and for probably weeks at a time i felt good (DP/R wise at least).

Of course i still had occasional times and moments when it was bad, but for the most part it was great and i was totally able to cope with almost everything thrown my way (even massive crowds etc). So i know its possible. It may have something to do with the fact that i love travelling, its something i always wanted (and want) to do and it seems like when i do something i enjoy (often at least) my DP/R gets better.

Does anyone else have this kind of anomalous experience of travelling, holidays/vacations or whatever?
 

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i think i'm a lot happier when i'm travelling so even if my dp/dr is acting up, i don't really care. i know it doesn't go away, because i can remember thinking about it at times during my travels...but when you travel, you don't have as much time to dwell on things. i think you tend to live more in the moment and focus your attention outside of yourself.
 
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