[luluinthefog]

I haven't left my house in days. I haven't showered in days. (gross i know but i would love to do it if i could). I'm so lightheaded and out of it I don't even feel human. I'm going up on one of my medicines and lowering another, could that be why I'm feeling so awful? I feel crazy and absolutely certain I'm going to die, even though I've had every test under the sun done. I can't go outside. It feels so surreal and strange out there that I start to get dizzy and nauseous. Especially during the daytime. I have a new job orientation in two days and I cannot see myself being able to go like this. I can barely leave the couch. I'm having multiple panic attacks a day where I feel like I'm either about to go crazy or about to faint. The world feels scary, like I'm on a horror movie set or something.

 

[nathan69]

Go to your job orientation and do things that distracted you from your worries. I used to do the same but what u should really do is just go hangout with friends or do activities that distract u. u might still feel likes it a dream or whatever but u might as well make it a fun dream. Good Luck

 

[dope]

You are not crazy, at all. Breathe in, breathe out and say "No, I can do this."

You don't deserve the treatment you're giving yourself. Your body needs cleaning. You can't expect for your body to function properly when you don't take care of it.

Start practising meditation, and write your feelings down. It really sounds like you need both of them. Tell a friend, someone who you trust. Don't go through this alone! It's not healthy. Anxiety is absolutely horrid, from personal experience. It's not fun, but you have to know that meds don't do it completely; They can help you, but they are not going to cure your mental problems. You have to work on those problems, and think of the meds as an aid to you. As well as therapy.
Also, something I've learned about intrusive thoughts is that it helps if you stop the thought on it's tracks and ask if there's any evidence for that thought. Let me give you an example: The thought "I'll be like this forever" pops in your mind. You stop it, and you ask if there's absolutely any evidence at all (anxious thoughts don't count as evidence, only logic) that that's gonna happen. It helps me at least.

If you need any immediate help, here are hotlines: http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/54170-crisis-suicide-hotlines/

Good luck! You can do this, and you will do this, don't doubt yourself! :idea:

 

[Chicane]

What you describe is exactly what I have been dealing with for years now, 24/7. I am always feeling off balance, spaced out, and like I have to concentrate just to walk normally. Being outside and in the sun/heat really exacerbates it. While I haven't been able to find a way out of it, it's very important to stay calm because panic and anxiety can absolutely make it even worse.

I do always feel extra out of it whenever I switch up medications, so I would bet that is adding to your symptoms right now. You could be feeling loopy from the upped dose of the one med, and suffering some withdrawal from the lowering of the other, for instance. So you will probably feel at least a little better within a few days, once your body adjusts.