For most of the day I have been reading a book, even though I read and make sense of the novel I can't help but still feel like I don't understand it.
Thoughts come into my head... I ask myself how do people come up with this stuff... as if my brain has no ability of imagination or creativity as all objects to me are the same, they have no meaning.
Another feeling that came across me today is being very un-responsive, when I asked the question I feel I can't respond as its tottally unbelieveable for me to understand that someone understands that I'm real when I don't feel it myself.
In a whole - today I just feel in a lost daze with the same old lost identity feeling, brain pauses and being an observer of the words coming out of my mouth and the thoughts passing through my head, they're not mine, were they hell are they coming from, what can I calissify as mine anyways when "me" doesn't exist.
Its crazy. Although I hope being able to read a book is a sign that I'm still functional and not headed to complete doom dissapearance.
The book I'm currently reading is one I was recommended to read... it's a very easy easy easy read.... "A Child Called ' It'"
p.s. Does anyone ever get a trapped feeling.... and its as if you just wanna go crazy and try to escape from something but you don't know what.
